I , ME , MYSELF

I am not a perfect girl

Not having a pretty face for which I can proud for

My hair doesn’t always stay in place

I am not so talented or genius
I don’t have a lot of friends to share & care. 
I look like nasty and clumsy
 I am just a geek 

I know that I’m a freak....

When ever I look back
I feel like how stupid I was

The mistakes I had done was really like nonsense
I was a crazy & nonsense person

I could n’t handle anything

I could n’t understand the situations

I do n’t wanna stay in my past
As it always hurt me again & again

I don't even wanna think about my future

I wanna  to live as gently as I can
no matter where I was & what I was
I have only  faith and honor on myself
To do my best and let that stand again
The record of my brain teach me again

Never do same mistakes further again
I am working and hope for victory
there is no secret place in my life

It’s clear like a glass anyone can see it

Even if I never wanna hide it
there is nothing to worry for shame or sin
that’s why I stand alone with a hope

One day will come when everything will be fine

I wanna live a life with freedom & unafraid

No one here to stop me

I don’t like to pretend to be someone which I am not

I love to live like a person

Which will be my future identification?

I am Self conscious, maybe a bit
I don't care much about that
I am tougher than  anything , which you can’t imagine
I can’t give up ,without even trying
I wanna fly if required, no limit
No giving up, in it to win it
I Believe in true love

I too believe on it

But I too fear to lose it

That’s why my heart says “it’s not easy to get it”

As many people come & leave

It’s a usual process in life

However sometimes I wanna leave some simple mark behind some person
to keep my having lived in their mind

I didn’t know whether I will get that person or not

Still I believe on myself

I can love myself truly

In this world it’s too difficult to get someone who  truly loves you

I believe in luck & believe lucky people only get the true love

& I am an unlucky girl

How can I hope for?

It’s just like try to swim on the land

Still I believe on my lord

I pray in front of him either send a person who could understand me

Or don’t send anyone whom I could not bear in my future

I never wanna cheat in my life

I believe love is very powerful to break you into pieces

& I never wanna to put myself in that situation

That’s why I fear to love & fear to believe anyone

I know love is always pure & soft

It’s never rude or false

But you should need a person like that

still i have faith on my lord
he is my boss & everything in my life

He is my true love & best friend of my life

He know everything about me

He knows what is better for me

That’s why I never ever worry for anything

As I believe on him

I pray before him Take care of me, just like forever
I don’t have any fear to anything
I  know I can Keep going alone till I finished the race in my life
If he will be with me
It doesn't mean I'll have to be in 1st place
I believe be simple, humble, kind

I won't be afraid to speak my mind
I Speak out, stand up, under control myself alone
I am Strong like a mountain, ever-changing as the sea
indeed that’s ME

My lovely future had always been a dream
clearly....I had no direction to move further...
But there’s only one thing I know about myself
I want to do more than I need
And need more than I want

Yes! ! !

But what can I do?? ?

That’s the big question in my mind

Which irritate me, which breaks me?

Still I couldn’t get any answer

I can do only one thing

Live a life as usual & do my work
I have to complete my journey alone

It’s not easy I know

Still I can’t wait
"for anyone to stay in my life & say I am here for you"

If I can’t run I have to walk

As I have got a precious life only once

I have to continue my journey till my last

Indeed! that’s me

&

I am proud to  be myself