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2016 is coming, only few hours left to change our calendar, again 365 days God is giving us to change something in our life.
We usually do the same thing from our childhood days , Like every year we change our calendar not ourselves or our life style , that’s why this year I plan something different may not it work better for this year , I hope it’ll work for my future and long run
Like every year I am going to take some resolution, but this is I think I should keep it secret. ok , let me give some hint , to modify my personality little bit more better as per my profession and the way I see myself in future .
2015 year was quit a busy year even not so good year for me , I started my year with tear means I lost my grand ma (mama’s mother) in December 27th 2014 and end up with also tear my elder brother’s health is not good (we may not from one mother , he is my cousin but more than my cousin . I love my brother so much. I wish! He should get well soon. I wanna see him in a good health condition and live longer life with his family.)so again 2015 leaving me with painful news, for this reason I can’t say 2015 was a good year for me as if something that really breaks me from inside that’s FEAR OF LOSING SOMEONE ELSE, I am such kind of person - I even fear to lose my enemy too, it doesn’t matter how much I hate you if you are in serious condition then I really care for you and pray for you as I know the meaning of losing after losing my grandma(My papa's mother) in an early stage who loved me so much. whom I hate , it doesn’t matter that person should be bad for all so I pray as I know he/she also good may not be for me . so I care for my enemy too but till now I don’t kind of enemy whom I hate so much until unless that person harm me so much . I don’t hate anyone else or can say i have such enemy , I show up my anger face sometimes so that people should know I also get hurt as people love to hurt me then don’t realize.
This is also the main reason WHY I STAY BACK IN LOVE RELATIONSHIP, I hate to lose or get cheated that’s the only reason I fear to STAY IN TOUCH WITH ANYONE ELSE. I don’t know I can’t believe any boys, sometimes I also fear whether I can be in any relation in my future life or not. So I pray before my lord, send a person who really understand me and love me not play with my emotion.
This is also the main reason WHY I STAY BACK IN LOVE RELATIONSHIP, I hate to lose or get cheated that’s the only reason I fear to STAY IN TOUCH WITH ANYONE ELSE. I don’t know I can’t believe any boys, sometimes I also fear whether I can be in any relation in my future life or not. So I pray before my lord, send a person who really understand me and love me not play with my emotion.
Let’s have a look on my 2015 Memory period –
Year started with tear – December 2014–Lost my Grand ma
Appeared GATE (M-tech) – February 7th 2015 –but couldn’t secure good mark so again my life turn into hell.
Enhance my Technical Skill – February 10 to April 25th - Learnt PHP, JAVA even did projects also in lakshya coaching center and start planning for my future projects.
Got PHP based job – May 20th – I got this job through many Job sites, off campus by my own, Package 15,000 per month which was very less for survive in this present world .so I move further.
Joined Sri sir University – July 14th – When I didn’t get M-tech , I felt like my life is spoiled and I can’t rise in my life ever as I didn’t have interest to do Computer based job even I got that also low package so I decided to join in MBA . Joining in Sri Sri University was my interest even have got selected for Symbiosis Pune too but maybe I love my Guruji (Sri Sri Ravisankar) so much , so love attracts me to come and join in SSU.
Convocation and maha satsang and many more events- After coming sri sri I really enjoyed my life well as this is purely holistic campus (Drug free, meat free campus) and second is here all celebration is like a big party for all, I learnt how to wear saree, this is my biggest challenge still I can do it and now I really feel good when I wear saree, this is the first place where I wear saree for the first time.
Got Internship – I got internship in many places, especially some startup companies but I love ALMAMAPPER, so I chose that. Even got in Focus Media, some process still pending but have 2 internship offers with me right now.
Appeared my 1st MBA semester – 23rd December 2015, within 1 week I tried to cover all subjects, this also a biggest challenge for me specially some subjects like marketing, accounting etc. as I love these subjects and at that same time I wanna gain more knowledge on these but I don’t have sufficient time at all.
I selected for ICIC bank as sales manager – December 30th – got conformation through Mobile.
Got news about my elder brother’s big health issue – which break me inside mentally even physically too, I pray before my Lord, he should get well soon. I love him so much.
These are my 2015 memory calendar , this year quit busy year even pathetic life also as I didn’t get GATE then I struggle for getting job even what I got I was not satisfied with that that’s why I change my plan and then joined in Sri Sri University as MBA , I love this place but it’s quit confusing . If anyone will overlook my whole 2015 period he / she can clearly visualize that – my life was totally based on uncertainty.
2016 is coming, let’s see what it bring in my life.
As many more surprise news it’s going to give me like my internship , my job and many more like love also if it is in this year then as I don’t know when my love life will start \Joking/
Some I planned to do -
Planned to do Yoga Daily: It's of extreme importance that you keep your body fit. Once you get up in the morning, give 15 minutes of your time to keeping your body fit. Start off with Suryanamaskars and Pranayama. Do as many Suryanamaskars your body can do. Remember to increase the number gradually. This might not show results immediately, but in a month or two, you'll see your body becoming more flexible. Eventually, you'll feel less lethargic. Make it a habit for lifetime.
Keep my technical skill like ever green: Always try to revise my technical knowledge how much I can because I don’t want to waste my 4 years of learning and money I spend on it .
Going for World Cultral Fest – I am really excited for this as I am going as an Odishi Dancer, I love odishi dance from my childhood days but never learnt. So I am really excited to be a part of WCF which is going too held in Delhi in the month of June.
Start making Team- Start making team for my future business, which I am planning to do as a partner basis. no doubt I want to do job first but in the same time I want to run my business as well , as it’s like someone will handle it as a partner then when I’ll be finical stable then I’ll give my 100% to my business. But at first I want a job, I need it badly. I know my papa will be my biggest partner, but I need people who are really fascinated about it and want to see themselves as a business leader in future. I don’t have much interest in business but I know why I am doing and my purpose. it’s all about social cause + establish my name in society but problem is that I am not getting people whose mentality match with me or who are really fit , if I am getting then don’t know again something happen they leave me . So getting right partner is really much important. Search for business partner is not less than any biggest task like searching for Perfect Love partner. Ha, it’s true, both are risk taking. You can’t live your whole life alone without Love and you can’t make business also alone like ONE MAN ARMY, people can do but I can’t as I don’t have sufficient money and support too. So let’s see what God is going to give me in my future world.
Love and marriage – first of all I am single , sometimes I feel like I’ll be forever single just because of my fear and meeting wrong people, again and again,this makes me feel like world is full of bad guys. Which depress me most of the time. by the way now I am 23+ year , so now I am not in the mood to marry so success comes first then marriage so I’ll marry after I become successful in my business career . about love life, I am still in confuse whether I can get anyone or not as I always meet wrong people , let’s see otherwise my parents will chose for me if I can’t or I’ll go for Matrimonial sites ;) but I am in Love marriage for or Arranged come Love you can say , I hate total arrange marriage as I can’t understand how parents are getting single guys as in my friend circle 95% guys are in committed relationship , few are like me who always cheated by others and fear to love.
I AM A WOMAN WITH VISION BUT I NEED A MAN WITH ACTION AS I AM POOR IN THAT.
These are all about me and what I planned to do , some plan are still secrete, about my own personality issue, let it secretes.
Hope , God bless me by giving me the Good news in this year as I can’t handle much bad news a head of my life , 23+ years of life I spend with much more unsuccessful and bad news than Good and successful news. Now I can’t tolerate more failure news.
I need the change in my Life!