PAST SHOWS IT'S GRATITUDE TO FUTURE

Have you ever look at yourself and think you changed a lot, at least in your personality and your life change a little bit.

We can’t mark it easily but we are influenced by our environment and situations, which indirectly help us to grow directly or indirectly, it also force us to become mature and wise as per time and situation.

My open diary blog is a kind of my open book for me, it tells how I was in past and how I am now. Not necessarily because of its quality, but because you realize you would write the story differently now that some time has passed. You realize you were impulsive in writing about a life-changing situation that your views on the experience have changed after having the time to reflect.

My past, present and my future defines me who am I not people!

My Past,

I still remember in my past, I was more emotional attached and I was quit dependable too but as per time passed I realize that I am quit emotional detached. At this time last year, I was stress about a series of issues, which I laugh about now. I spent countless days. The one you wanted the most, obviously took the longest to come. Sometimes you also allow others to influence your choices, for which now I am literally crying or can say which affect my life a lot indirectly but I know one thing DESTINY IS MUCH POWERFUL THAN OTHERS, I definitely miss those days at school, college and my engineering life as those days defines what I am now, those days helps me to become stronger and wiser than before. Especially, being friends, with people that I’m not very friendly with anymore. Those were definitely the easier days as MY ENEMIES WERE LESS , MY ONLY ENEMIES WERE MY FRIENDS ONLY - WHO HAVE NO MUCH POWER OVER MY FAILURE STILL THAT ALSO AFFECTED ME AT THAT TIME AS I FACE THAT FOR THE FIRST TIME BUT AS I GROW MORE AND MORE I REALIZE MY BATTLE FIELD IS LIMITLESS OR BIGGER , IT GONNA BE BIGGER AS PER TIME TOO EVEN I DON'T HAVE ANY MISTAKES TOO. Nomatter how is your life everything will end in beautiful way "I remember the day I graduated, being such a bittersweet day."

Dear Present Me,

Only 1 month left to 2017, let’s welcome it with a beautiful smile. Only 3-4 months left to complete my MBA, After that my life may be more serious than before but my actual journey will start from that day as I’ll get freedom to start my own journey as per I wish . waiting for that day but I know MY JOURNEY WILL NOT BE EASY AT ALL , IT GONNA BE MORE STRUGGLING AS NOW MY FIGHTING IS WITHIN A LIMIT or can say with an IMAGINARY WORLD WHICH HAS LESS SENSE BUT AFTER I LEAVE MY STUDENT LIFE, LIFE BECOME MORE SERIOUS EVEN JOYFUL. As I’ll go to meet MY LOVE or can say GET MY LOVE , SOMETIMES I FEEL IT’S HORRIBLE TO WAIT , LETS MAKE IT OVER AND I HAVE TO TAKE STEP FORWARD FOR THAT AND I LOVE TO TAKE RISK WHICH IS WORTH ENOUGH as well as I going to make my dream true – Writing as well as Social work.

I can honestly say this year has been a roller coaster ride for me, but I wouldn’t want any other way. I have met the best people in college and learnt anything in my life. College has also introduced me to many different people, especially ones that I was lucky enough to become friends with that live on my floor. I definitely learned a lot about myself like my strength and my weakness , where PEOPLE ACTUALLY ATTACK AND HOW I DEMORALIZED AND THE DIFFERENT WAYS , NOW I ALREADY TURNED MY WEAKNESS INTO STRENGTH TO MAKE MYSELF STRONGER AND WISER , I PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT “I’LL NOT TO BECOME VICTIM AGAIN or can say I’LL NOT ALLOW ANYONE TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME AGAIN” in my life. I have also learned how to be my own person. You cannot allow people to walk over you, there comes a time that you have to stand up for yourself. Lastly, college has definitely taught me how to become a better person through YOGA, writing a stronger essay way to share my voice and my feelings until I get someone whom I need a lot in my life. My first year of college has definitely turned me into a person, past me would be proud of.

Dear Future Me,

There are always things to remember. Stop living on the past, live in the present. Stop remembering the bad moments and start remembering the good ones. Although it isn’t always shown why, everything happens for a reason. Even if you don’t know the reason, there is probably one. People change, and you can’t prevent that, you just have let them be. Always remember “Happiness is a journey not a destination but when happiness attach with your love that becomes destiny”. People will come and go in your life, and you will never truly know why. Always remember, not to change for anybody. If people don’t love you for you, that is their loss, not yours. Don’t let others behaviour and words define you, lift yourself up. Search a guy, who will love you for you in every time both happy as well as sorrowful moments. Remember to be the best you can be. Don’t forget to have fun.

Find a major like I choose marketing that will lead into a job that you will love doing what you do everyday. I am just waiting to get a job which can help me to grow in my life.

ALL TIME LIFE LESSON - FACING YOUR FEARS IS THE KEY TO EVERYTHING.

Past Me was really scared of being losing people specially WHOM I LOVE A LOT and PEOPLE TAKE THAT AS A BIG ADVANTAGE , Now I AM QUIT DETACHAD as I learnt WHO MEANT TO BE IN YOUR LIFE THEY’LL STAY BY HOOK OR BY CROOK , GOD WILL HELP YOU AND NO ONE IS MUCH POWERFUL THAN GOD AS HE CREATED THIS WORLD . My past and present are my greatest teacher as they always teach me how to move forward and when?

I learnt one lesson – My life journey will not be going to smooth so better I should make myself stronger and wellness to take risk instead of running from that. As I already a BIG LOSER and now I have nothing BIG TO LOSE which can hamper me and MY MIND much or deeper as I already learnt from last many years and THOSE WHO LEFT I KNOW THEY’LL NEVER EVER LEAVE ME ALONE . FAITH MAKES EVERYTHING POSSIBLE.

I still remember my papa always say even now also – DON’T SAY ANYBODY "WHOM YOU LOVE AND WHAT’S YOUR DREAM" , I still remember when I was child even now also he always suggest me this either in phone or simple conversation as he always tell me FIRST YOU DO THEN SAY but I always do opposite then later on I realize people always spoil the good things or precious things. Now I realize the value of his words. But now I feel my life is not going to be easy so better I have to prepare myself as per that – STRONG AND WISE. I already told my God – I AM READY FOR MY FUTURE. I have faith on him he going to take care of me in my future within all odds.

As a born in a HINDU Brahmin family – I know as per my astrology (Zodiac sign- Aquarius and Nakastra – Sathabhisa) my life is not going to be easy so better to be strong more and more as per time and situation. I am not saying – My wiki is saying that , but I wish (PRAY) ! may god help me to maintain my Love life beautiful and strong always as other I can handle by myself better.

Link - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shatabhisha

PS – A different prospects of “my life”, it’s my personal life story so don’t take it personally. 

WHEN SOMEONE HOLD YOUR HAND AND WHEN SOMEONE LEAVE YOUR SIDE . TAKE THIS IMAGE IN POSITIVE SENSE