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Life is incomplete without love & honest work. Which is the
main theme of this story? Live your life fullest, enjoy every moment .do your
work honestly, never run after money or success or famous. I always believe if
you are honest to your work means you will be automatically famous,
if you will be famous means you success, if you success means money will come.
But always a successful person is not the richest person, but yes they get
enough money for survive & fulfill their general requirement. Success
belongs to those who actually learn something from their life <A GOOD
LEARNER> & a good human being. We all get life for
once, let's stop taking about what make you worry, think about those
which really make you happy. Because we don’t know when our life will be end
& we will be still there like as before. Some changes should be needed.
Smile & make other smile. Live for others that's called as life. You
never know how much beautiful it is. Live it & show others how to live a
peaceful life. Enjoy each & every moment. Which our life always teaches.
This is a story of a hero
,who did many things for
his country & his love life .many problems arises still he never break or
bend… just read ,you can understand how beautiful life is …..
Here I act as a narrator!
Hope this story touch your soul, this is something different kind
PAIN + STRUGGLE + PLAN +
LOVE + SUCCESS = LIFE
~STORY START ~
Ah!
Ah!
At last SUNDAY, I always wait for this day. I actually love this
day because I get some time to spend with my grand papa & feel relax so
much. it already 8 o’clock in my wrist watch ,as usually I finished my everyday
work all exercise & bath everything before 8 o’clock. I felt this morning
is so special for someone, of course not for me but for my grand papa, I found
him smiling & talking with himself for the first time. at first I didn’t
wanna mark him but when I saw him further I found him smiling in open air , really I could not understand with
whom he was talking . When I saw him constantly I found he was looking at my grandmother’s
pic & telling something to her. It was damned cute .I never felt that my
grand papa was also so much romantic. When I saw him in this condition I
couldn’t control my emotion , I hugged him tightly & silently told him in his
ear! “You missed someone, am I right. You can’t tell me
lie I marked you .I mark your each & every activities but this is the
first time I feel that you are so much romantic mood what has happened! In a jock
I told him who is that heroin” then we both laugh for sometime then he left
that place .but before leaving that room he told me YES SOMEONE SPECIAL, WHO
WAS & WILL BE FOREVER IN MY MIND & HEART! For the first time I felt “he is weak” , no doubt he was very strong
person from mind but for the first time
I felt he is weak from his heart ” he is
not what he looks he is very kind & soft from his heart” . First time I
found a love in his eyes after so many years, but I couldn’t understand what
might be happen so that he became so weak! Which made me tensed? As without him
my life was empty, I had no supporter because he is a great idol for me now
& will be future .as he was a real hero in his time. He did many things for
his city & even if in his country also. He was not only strong but also
very soft hearten person. But he never told me about his past life, which I
really wanna know. But I had to wait for the good time & his good mood.
Day passed,
ah! What a beautiful evening sun fall scene! It was clearly visible from my grandpa’s
room. At that day I felt like sun also don’t wanna go, it was really a beautiful
evening, cold wind was blowing from south .me & my grand papa was enjoying
the sunset scene. This is not today’s case, but most of the time we both enjoy
the sun set. No doubt I couldn’t give company to my grand papa every time , but
I saw he too love to enjoy the sun set & he never wanna to miss this view but
I don’t know why ,but I always feel there
must be some story behind this ?? But whenever I asked this question , he always
smiled & left that place, I didn’t know why???
Sometimes, I felt he knowingly hide something! He can’t keep the secret but some he loved to
hide like some personal life & the lady who is the story behind his whole
life & whom he always miss! I wanna know everything about his past life.
That evening we both together enjoying the beauty of the earth & the
sun fall scene … I feel he continuously smiling & murmuring. For a while I
also I stop looking at the sun & continuously staring him.
Suddenly he looked at me & I felt like shocked, actually I also looked at
him & when both looked at the same
time it was really a different kind of feeling as u all know!
He
asked me “what has happened” & I smiled
& say “I love someone & I wanna share with you
about him, can you bear me please! “He smiled & told, you are in
love & laugh. Are you serious & I told yes, I am!
“Please don’t insult me .I am not a kid, I am mature enough!”
Suddenly his laugh stopped & asked me who
is that alien??? & further laughed
like mocking at me.
This time I was
seriously fired upon him, he was thinking I am kid & I couldn’t love anyone
.HUH … tear filled in my eyes when I saw him how he took it as a jock , suddenly his tone
changed when he saw me in teary eyes & asked me tell me “now I am serious
,sorry ! I could not believe you ! you
are so matured to love someone. Right now also I couldn’t believe how the days
passed & you turned into 20 years. It’s like a dream for me, really my daughter,
I love you! Tell me your story”…but he didn’t know it was my entire plan
to know about his past life. So suddenly I change the topic & emotionally
blackmail him ."OH, yes u wanna know. Have you told me about your love life .hmmm!!!
Did you! If no , then how you expect , I will tell you my story. If you can hide
why not me! it’s a symbiotic relationship , if you will tell me then I’ll
tell you . Then tell me your
story first"!!!
First
time I saw him a blushed smile over his face, he eyes filled with full of tears
& a smile with lots of love. I felt like is this my grandfather!!! Or who
is that man???
He gave me
one diary & told me to read this "where I have written everything which can
give you your all the answers!" I saw that diary total 10,950
pages means 30 years & everyday one page!
I felt
like horrible, OMG how can I complete it. But I was so curious to know so I
started to read the first page slowly I could not understand how a night passed
& another day also passed & I was sitting on that chair & was
reading & tear drops falling from my eyes! I couldn’t believe this! I felt every successful man has a painful life history, TRUE L
When I opened the first page I saw the date it was
1/1/1980
The story beings
“It was a wonderful day for me, as my mother &
father all are together. My two brothers & one sister also here, like a happy
sweet family. Pray we all will be together & happy like this throughout the
year. it’s my new year resolution I will keep my promise & show to this
world I will be like my dream hero
really who inspired me ,not only he but
also my mother is great ideal for me & great teacher .who is behind my each
& every success who tried her best to give me better education. Some time I
feel I couldn’t believe a day without my mother. She is my life. Life begins
& slowly slowly i grow up. I was not belongs to any high profile still I never feel like I was poor because my
mother was sufficient to fulfill our all requirements &
we also tried our best to give her
smile. As she had done many thing for us.
Life begins with many struggles, my father died .but our life’s flow would not change
and we tried more & more to become educate. sometimes society also told many things still we managed ,I learn many things
from my life .I am a good learner as I learnt
many things from my childhood days
,which helped me in my young age to become a successful man. We tried
not only to service but also to survive with a good & prestigious way. That
only my education could give .seriously telling.”
After
reading this I felt the importance of education & try try until you get success.
That should be in prestigious way. No doubt many people are there in this world wish for
become a famous personality but very few do work honestly which helped them in future to become
famous. I learnt being famous is not important but the way you famous is
important.
Then further I started to read 1/1/1990
“Wow, it is really a wonderful day for my life some real
pleasure I have got, it’s really a great feeling. I have got which I always
dream for. I always wanna to help others & it’s a great platform to help
others .sometimes I wanna thanks to my lord & sometimes to my pain & struggling moment .but every
time I wanna thanks to my mother. No doubt I entered but I don’t know how to
take this serious responsibility .sometimes it really makes me fear. Whether I
could success here or not. Is there anything wrong I am doing? Every time many
thoughts came in my mind, still I tried my best to make everyone smile. I believe
on myself, I am not doing anything wrong & I can try my best to become my
dream person. My life goes on & I am very serious for my duty. Of course I
should be .as it is my country & it is my first duty .I did many things &
many things I achieved. Still I felt never happy. Every time I wanna do more
& more. How my people became pleased & their all requirements will be
fulfilled it is my everyday tension , I don’t wanna to please any single person,
I wanna get pleasure from my heart when I really do something from my heart
& in a honesty way. YES! I HAVE DONE GOOD THING & GOD WILL GIVE ME GOOD RESULT”
After reading this I felt he was so serious for his duty & he
always wanna do something for someone. After reading this my heart filled up
pride & respect. How great my grandpapa is???He really deserve for love
& respect. But I couldn’t find any romantic life history in his life. Only
work load whole life .still I was counting how many pages left …I thought maybe
next page I will get something which I really wanna to know. As I was young, my
mind was always there means on love matter. Whom he loved & how he loved. I
was so curious to know.
Then further I started to read 1/1/1995
“Oh so beautiful morning, I am preparing myself for the office as usual ,
suddenly my eyes fall on a girl who dress up something different. You can say, it
was so funny type. I just smile at her…how funny…& tell myself why people
like to be dress up like this??? What
they think, is it really suits them or they seek people attention. After
entering into my car I locked my door & further my eyes fall on that girl. I
found she was something different. then
for the first time I wanna watch a lady’s crazy activities ,I found she was doing something amazing .she actually
wanna to spread smile through this .as now a day’s life is so busy ,so we
should not forget to smile. This was her message to whole .that’s why she dress
up like that. After that I interested to know more things about her. I collect
the information, I found that she was a physiology student, not only this she
did many good work. But seriously I am saying for the first time I was little
bit attracted because for her activities .her dressing style really always came
in my eyes. Whenever I staring at my window, I don’t know why she always came in
front of eyes. I wanna flush her out from my mind but couldn’t do. Suddenly one
day I found her in my office as I was the collector she needed some signature
for open a new school for the poor & handicraft children & a new apartment for poor homeless parents” no doubt I couldn’t give permission to all, still
after her many request & valuable explanation , I gave permission to open a
school for poor as well as physical handicraft children. At that time I didn’t
know about her & slowly she also removed from my eyes & mind. But one
day I socked when I saw her she saved one life before a train. Which really a shocking
news for me .I couldn’t believe my eyes, how a girl can do such kind of
adventurous work!
Which shocked me for a while after that my heart filled up full of
respect for her. No doubt I could not express my feeling but heartily I thanked
her a lot as saved one life. Everyday her all activities came in front in my dream,
I could not sleep peacefully I felt what was going. Why for the first time my
heart beat for a lady! Is there any reason behind or is it love! Every morning I
staring at the window as my eyes always wanted to see her at least once. I
didn’t know what was really happening. no doubt when I was busy in my office I
forget everything as my work was my first love but when I got relax from my
work or whenever I listen any song suddenly her face came in front of my eyes.
Sometimes I managed to say myself it’s just an illusion, it can’t be possible. I
have to be strong from my mind & heart.
Days passed like running a race, I couldn’t know how one year passed
& I never met with her still her image always etched in front of my eyes. Sometimes
I smile at myself how crazy I am! one day further I saw her in my office
,actually at time I thought she was in
front of me ,but I didn’t know she was really in front of me .as it was like my
daily illusion . I smiled & told myself in a load voice CONCENTRATE!!!HUH
She just astonished & knocked the door further & asked for coming ,but
this time I feel no , it’s real .I feel little bit nervous before her as
whom you love if that person come in front of you. It’s really very painful
& socking moment to see their eyes & talk with them as a normal person.
Oh God it was damned painful time for me. I control myself then I told her what
you want! She further came with that pervious application which I was rejected
at first. This time I couldn’t refuse her & signed her application. She
left my office & one junior officer told me that she must be fake how I
allow everyone to start this type of responsible work. But my heart said no,
she is not only good but also amazing one. Still for clarify I told my junior
officer tomorrow morning they will go that place where that school & the poor old homeless
people are staying. I was sure that she was not a cheater but still I
wanna prove her. That’s why I had gone that place with my staffs .I found some
kind of peace there. I couldn’t believe my eyes how a lady take the whole responsibility,
when I asked this question she smiled & told “this
is my duty not my work. A person can’t compromise with his/her duty. I feel
these children are my brothers & sisters .that poor parents are my real parents.
This is my whole family which consists of 120 members. It’s still too small I
wanna a big family need more love” after listening this I gave a check
with money 1 million rupee to help her, I know it was not sufficient ,but I couldn’t
control myself when I saw a such kind of daring girl ,who alone handle the
whole . But I wanna know about her. I felt that “I never met such kind of girl”
so I collected information about her. I found that she was the only girl of her
parents & her name is ROSE but after her
parents died in an accident she suffered a lot. even if she worked other houses
to get some food but lord help her so one day one kind hearten priest saved her
life & helped her to become a good educated person & helped her a lot to become a person she wanted
.no doubt that priest couldn’t gave her everything but he fulfilled her all
monetary requirements . As he was not a married person & he worked in a church.
There was a great respect for him in her heart. That’s why she built this whole
school & apartment on his name. After getting this news he felt that his
life quite beautiful than her. I really want to talk with her. Every day
evening in returning time I love to meet with her & love to talk with those
innocent kids .days passed they fall in love with each other. But ROSE fear as
she knew there was no one in her life & she feared what will happen if she
would marry as she has a lots of responsibility. Slowly time passed I fully
mentally prepared me to marry her. But I felt she make some distance from me
but I couldn’t understand the reason behind her ignorance. Sometimes it really
hurts me a lot. Still I manage to tell my heart everything gonna be ok. Every
time in my pray I only beg her, I don’t know why may be I loved her so much. At
last she agrees to marry. No doubt at that time I was struggling for
win the election , sometimes I felt she really lucky for me ,because
after she entering into my life my life changed a lot. Her love
always comforts me & her smile always took my all sorrow. My days passed.
She became pageant no doubt I win, but
there was a war related to a company matter.
I tried my best to solve this problem. At that time the condition was
really worst ,I couldn’t understand what I will I do ,sometimes I wanna to regain but ROSE always encourage me ,no
doubt at last that problem solved
but some people really against in my decision.
So one day I was celebrating my success. One angry citizen shoots me but
unfortunately ROSE saved my life & she took the risk of her life. That day I really feel so weak. Because
doctor put two option before me & which I have to choose
Either I will
go for surgery for to save my child but no guaranty for mother
If I don’t
choose 1st option then I will 2nd option “no surgery, but
they don’t get any child further in their whole life. She might be alive or die,
but more chance to live.
So I choose the second option, as she was
everything for my life. No doubt her life saved but we live a life like die
each moment as she was suffering from Alzheimer disease & she could not be mother
further. Sometimes I feel like hell, why she took all the risk for me. No doubt
we had 1000 children & 500 parents .that’s why I never feel empty in my life but I always feel guilty whenever
I saw my wife .she was a real gift for me sometimes I think. One day one of my
staff died in an accident so I took care of his baby at that time he was only 6
months .we fully complete after that .ROSE died at the age of 30th.most
painful day of my life.i lost my half part. Still she always in my heart.
After her I feel there is nothing in my life. so I stop writing.”
After reading this tear drop fall from my
eyes, what a love story & after that I could understand why my grand papa didn't want to tell his story.
One day fully complete , I feel like one hour, my motion became slow
& I felt like life is what…only pain??? Still I wanna know the story after
that so I went to his room, at that time he was looking at his old album. I
smiled & hugged him tightly & cried a lot. You are a real hero. I love
you more than me. I couldn't express my feelings. But one word I wanna say “YOU
ARE REAL HERO”, but I wanna know more things about your life after this last
page.
he smiled & told one word. I finished my journey there, means my life
ended!