MOST PAINFUL TIME IN YOUR LIFE

Most painful situation or time in your life

When you try to explain yourself & no one is with you to listen. Here I am not scolding anyone; I am scolding my bad luck which is my main enemy. How can I blame others where my God don’t support me? when your toleration power become zero , u wanna give up your life also. Sometimes I also feel like that as my tolerating power now all most ZERO & have no strength to tolerate anything more. I am not demanding anything what I don’t deserve, I am demanding what I deserve. I am begging help & always return with empty hand. How can I explain & whom & what… what I’ll tell ?  & whom & what I perform ?  & where ? I have no idea, seriously telling. I have nothing in my hand. One thing left that is tolerate everything without doing any sound. I wanna be like mute, deaf & blind. But how a person can live like that.

Sometimes , I wanna isolate myself from the whole world as I can’t tolerate any comments … I can’t, seriously I can’t. I am not weak but my situation made me weak, break me inside & out also. I know what I deserve but some people try their best to proof me wrong, I have nothing to tell anything to anyone. Even if now I stop believing on God also, no complain before him. As I know now he is also blind for me .

I have only one request before my God either give me what I deserve or take me from this world. I can’t tolerate more unnecessarily. Seriously I know what I have done, I have no idea to proof myself also. I am belonging to such a family where peace & tolerating everything is the height priority. but I am the exceptional one, I can’t tolerate what I don’t deserve & I don’t want to listen bad comments from any outsiders what I really don’t deserve. I am astonished how some people know many things about me & comment me, whom I don’t know. They are neither belongs to my college or I never seen them before also. So what’s wrong with me, what I have done? Why I have so much enemy. My problem is I am writing, doing paint or sketch or I am concentrating on my study only. If you problem with these. Sorry, I can’t give up….It’s my life so why you people interfere with my life , why you people creating problems in my life. I never harm anyone but why I always suffer. WHY???

I have no problem to stay alone throughout my life, but I can’t bear my defeat where I really don’t deserve or where I suffer unnecessarily. 

I want someone at least listen my voice. no doubt my parents believes me but they can’t do anything…I LOVE MY PAPA& MAMA , I KNOW THEY  BELIEVE ME BUT THIS THING ALSO TRUE THEY ARE PEACE LOVER  , THAT’S WHY HE MADE ME LIKE THIS.  But I am little bit different, I also can’t shout. But I can’t sit silently.

I BELIEVE DON’T TOLERATE WHAT U DON’T DESERVE.

PS: - Sorry this article not related to my friends/ college matters / not anything like that. I have shown my frustration through this & wanna to tell what is today’s life. If you fight for right or if you fight for wrong things you will either face problem , your life will spoil. so I gonna stop thinking about my society  related to corruption or any Question paper leak matter Or Education Or anyone . from today I promise I’ll not interfere with anything or will not write anything about this matter so do what ever you want “till I get my own voice” .

I NEVER FEAR FOR DEATH AS I KNOW EVERYONE WILL FACE IT ONE DAY BUT I CAN’T BEAR MY DEFEAT, WHAT I DON’T DESERVE.

. So plz don’t blame anyone unnecessarily.

<NO DOUBT I PROMISE MY PARENTS NOT TO WRITE ARTICLES WHICH CAN CREATES PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE. BUT I NEVER PROMISE TO STOP WRITING FOR FOREVER >