MY DEFINITION ON LIFE

My definition on LIFE – life is a painful path. Sometimes it gives you pleasure & sometimes it gives you sorrow. But we have to live & we have to plan for our next life. If we give up then we never learn anything. So it’s better to tolerate everything without making any sound. But don’t tolerate all, because something excess is very bad. So live a life as your wish but sometimes we have to think about other also.

When I was child I was the only girl child in our family & I felt no one is luckier than me. My parents are so good & loving & my whole family loves me a lot. So what I want / need more. But when I grew up I realize my life is not that much easy or good as I was thinking before. It’s neither painful nor good. I cried a lot whenever I think about my past life, it made me cry & delight me also.  But every stage makes me wiser & strong.

Sometimes I ask one question to God “IS I EXCEPTION / SINGLE PIECE IN HIS CREATURE” what’s wrong with me. Why always wrong things happen with me, why I always suffer, why I always face problems. Many questions rooming in my mind. Which makes me lonely most of the time? That’s the reason I fear to make any friendship with anyone, I don’t wanna drag anyone into my bad luck. I am happy alone, as I tolerate alone. I am facing problems but every time I adjust my mind saying one thing- It’s for short period. But why these thing only happening with me. Why he made me like this, whether I have faults or I can’t understand others. So why I only suffer. Why people scold me unnecessarily, why people hurt me even when I never did/ do any kind of mistake or I never harts others.  IS THERE ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME.?

my labor go in vain, I have no such friends whom I can believe blindly even if now I fear to make any friendship, people comments me without any reason, people try to harm me without any reason but why. I never did any mistakes or never harm anyone. But why I suffer a lot.

Sometimes I ask this question to my lord everyday - am I exceptional or he knowing gives me to make me stronger & wiser.  What’s the reason behind it, why I only suffer a lot? Why, every day I ask this question. But now I am tired to ask one question daily, so I stop asking & praying. I stop praying as I can’t believe him more, I have no faith now. Everything has a limit but he cross & even if I have also crossed the limit of my toleration power. So live a joker, now I am smiling even when I don’t want.

Life is a painful path

Oh dear

Try to cross it

At some point you want a give up

But you have to live

This is your life dear

Live for a while

I am saying

As I am suffering

I know the actual meaning of life

Ask me once

I can tell you everything

What is it?

It is a neither painful or cheerful

It’s depends on you

How you can take it

I am smiling like idiot

While my tears blocked my eye lids

I smile everyday without any reason

& I fully prepared to live alone

I don’t wanna give torture any other

So I decide to live a peaceful as I wish

I know my life is not good or cheerful

However I am trying for it

I am trying to make myself happy artificially

I am trying to motivate myself

I am trying to pushing myself up

I am the driver of my life

I am the decision maker or protector for myself

I feel happy with a alone life

I will be happy if no one will cry

When I will die

As I can’t see tear in anyone’s eyes

So I feel it’s better to live alone

So that no one will be so closer

Who will cry for you?

One benefit if you choose a lonely life

You can do anything whatever I want

So I choose to make some life brighter

Whose life is poorer than me?

I know the meaning of pain

& it’s neither poverty nor any torture

It’s a different kind of pain

Pain for gain

Pain for gain your dream

Which is everything to me?

So I know the meaning of pain

Maybe it’s different

However I can realize it how much painful it is

So I wanna help those whose life is poorer than me

I will help the poor & uneducated children

It will be a great way to fulfill my dream

I don’t care if I can’t fulfill my dream

If I can help ten children then that will be enough for me

So I choose to live for others

I choose to live alone throughout my life

I know its best choice I ever made

As I know time is very limited for me

& I have to do lots of things with in it

So I choose to make myself happy & father proceed

I forget what I lose or what I can’t able to fulfill

But I don’t wanna to lose more

So I choose to live a happy life

I choose a lonely happy life

Oh my dear

Hope you understand it

What life is mean to me?

I am telling as I want everyone should live a life

As their wish

Don’t be worry, don’t be hurry

Make your life tension free