MY LIFE MY PAIN

I am neither in pain or in pleasure . I am writing what is actually going. Within 22 years I learn many things & walk through many worst situations. But I feel ashamed on myself I can’t make any good or true friend. Even I feel ashamed on myself but I can feel proud I have one friend - one my childhood friend no one can take her place. She was one of the priceless gifts from God except her I never get anyone in this world who is actually pure, I always search a pure person but why I can’t get. Sometimes people say I have no friends even my parents say but my problem is I can’t tolerate DRAMA OR FAKE FRIENDSHIP. Because if I am suffering now because of my faith on my friends & for my helping nature, at some point of my life. There was a time I was very fool so it’s easy to make me fool but now sorry, I can’t allow others to make me fool.

(Plz-  don’t related this friendship issue as any LOVE ISSUE , till now neither I had any Boy friend nor I was in Love . actually I don’t believe such kind of stuffs . I have faith on friendship than Love issues. Even I experiment on many of my friends so I know “what the love mean” … Even now I also get power to tolerate rumors as it’s a common issue for me. Bur I hate the rumors because this rumor spoiled my 3 years engineering career. I lost many of my friends without any reason & simple miss understanding. So now I hate this. As I know I am going to leave this college so I don’t fear to tell truth, this is the truth. IF ANY ONE HAS ANY DOUBT GO & SEE MY ARTICLE MY HOSTEL LIFE THERE I HAVE WRITTEN WHOLE ISSUE. I HAD NO FAULT . Even I don’t wanna give excuses but some point I feel it’s better to tell the truth. I know I can’t say loudly even no one try to listen me. So I always write it down. I don’t feel shame to tell everything in public if people don’t care about me & spread wrong rumors then why should I care to write all these things. Even without doing anything if people behave me rudely then it’s better to write & tell them what truth actually. EVEN I BELIEVE THIS ONE = THOSE WHO LOVES YOU THEY DON’T NEED PROOF, THOSE WHO HATE YOU THEY DON’T BELIEVE IT. STILL I LOVE TO GIVE PROOF & EXPLAIN EVERYTHING.)

PS- MY COLLEGE OR MY FACULTIES ARE NOT INCLUDING HERE. EXCEPT SOME PEOPLE . SO I AM NOT BLAMING ALL. FORGIVE ME PLEASE, IF I HAVE WRITTEN THIS , BUT I FEEL I CAN’T TOLERATE MORE , IT’S OVER SO I WROTE IT DOWN. BUT I DON’T KNOW WHY ALL OF THESE THINGS ONLY HAPPENS WITH ME WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING WITH ANYONE . AM I EXCEPTIONAL OR PEOPLE LOVE TO TEASE ME OR THEY LOVE TO SEE ME IN FAILURE OR THEY LOVE TO SEE ME DEPRESSION. EVEN I LOSE MY 3 YEARS IN THIS THOUGHT,IF I WANNA RISE , THEY ARE BEHAVING ME RUDELY. SORRY, I CAN’T TOLERATE MORE. NO DOUBTS MY PARENTS ALWAYS TELL ME TOLERATE EVERYTHING AS YOUR FUTURE IS A HEAD, NOW YOUR CAREER IS THE BIG ISSUE DON’T SPOIL IT , BUT SORRY I CAN’T TOLERATE EVERYTHING. NO DOUBT AFTER 2 OR 3 MONTHS I WILL LEAVE THIS COLLEGE, EVEN THEY DON’T MATTER FOR ME AFTER THIS . STILL I WANNA EXPLAIN MYSELF !!!

FORGIVE ME PLEASE – I AM NOT A JOKER – ANYONE CAN LAUGH AT ME

Life is ocean of sorrow

Life is full of pain

Still you have to walk

Still you have to walk

May stone & throne comes in front of you

But don’t stand still

If you will do then you will fail in your life

Walk until you get success

Walk until you reach at your destiny

Your sole may fill with blood

May lines of tear dry in your cheek

May your lips becomes dry

No one can see it

Even can’t feel how much pain you are getting

Even no one care & believes until you get success

This is the world need proof in everything

Some people enjoy it when you feel pain & injured

Some people really cry for it

So cry for those who really care for your tear

Ignore the world who are enjoying your defeat & pain

So walk walk until you reach at your destination

May you die while walking?

Still that has also one value or can also call as win

 No need to live if you can’t win or get fulfill your dream

Some people come to defeat you

Some people knowingly hurting you

Some people praying for your loss

Still don’t care the world who are knowingly killing you

You should have faith on yourself & on those who are living for you

So fight for them who really want to see you in your destination

Fight for them to make them happy

Once you reach at your destination then nothing can demoralize you again

So walk, till you reach at your destination

Life is also an ocean of sorrow

Which everyone has to cross smiling?

Whatever one’s capacity

Sometimes it just like beyond of our capacity

Our pain & toleration has a saturation point

But some people has power to cross it

Some situation comes in our life

Everyone behave like enemy

Everyone’s eyes is on you

They behave you very rudely

As you don’t follow their rule

Sometimes people love to see you down

So they knowingly give you pain & talking about you

Still don’t be worry

No one is yours

Shade tear for those who is yours

Do your work

One thing you should keep in your mind

No one in this world can see your success

Why should you worry?

People are talking about you, laughing at you, mocking you

As you are not doing what they are saying

Don’t listen others

Do what you want

You know why!

No one can see you in success

So why should you worry for

If people laughing at you & torturing you

They just know doing this to divert your mind

So do what you want

It’s the only time you can fulfill your dream

Go ahead and never look behind

Life just like a bubble

You don’t know when your time will be end

So live each day as your last day

Although the world is full of complicated

Every moment, changing faces

One moment, flowers spread their fragrance

Hearts sing, dance and play with happiness

Next moment, the smiling moon fades away

And disappears in the deep darkness of night

One moment we feel our life become like hell

And we lost ourselves

The next moment we feel we flow on like a peaceful river

Life just like an old mud house

You don’t know when it will break down

Just now was there and next moment no more

Becomes a tear in a moment and laughter in another

So you can’t predict anything what can be happen next

So live each day like it’s your last day

Life is also a promise

That everyone will have to fulfill

How does it matter if the destination is far-off?

How does it matter if the path is difficult?

If one does not get a starlit sky

Then light a lamp in your heart