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I born in 1991 in baripada in Orissa. That was a stormy night, mean I born in
the mind night 2’o clock, when the rain was raining heavily & no current
was there. I born in the tragedy time means rain was raining heavily & even
a stormy night. I have not experienced :D what my parents & RELATIVES
describe me. That’s the reason People call me in many names related to storm
& rain blew :P I have not one name I have 1000s of name if anyone go
to my village even in my family everyone call me in different name. as I was
the only girl child at that time , so everyone love me even I also love
everyone Even my nick name is “MAMUNI” that’s not given by my parents yeah my
parents call me “MAMA”,
“MAMUNI” name was given by our owner of the
house where my papa & mama were living in 1991 , the couple have 5 sons
& no daughter , they want a daughter as I was kid & even I was looking
cute so that also take me as their daughter & gave me a new name “MAMUNI” &
request my mom to keep this name for life long , that’s the reason now also my
nick name is MAMUNI , at that time my papa was working in
entrepreneur development job at first 1991 . That was a beautiful job but alas
that company forced to shut down due to some reason, my papa was also a very
well educated person. He was PASSED IN MATHEMATICS HONORS in Banivihar
Bhubaneswar . He was the handsome hunk in his time. He has participated many
dramas,
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| MY PAPA WAS ACTING AS HERO IN HIS TIME - DRAMA IN PROTECT CHILD MARRIAGE (BANIVIHAR - MATH HONORS TIME) |
even
I have the pics also and even he was in many well positions in his college
career. At that time lectures have no demands even he didn’t want to do job
under state government so he didn’t join in lecture jobs. he wanna do something
different , he had a different aim , he wanted to do MCA & wanted to see
himself in a good position .even he had done the computer course , I am talking
about 1988-89 case , he was a brilliant student but unfortunately he missed To
join MCA so he bounded to join in entrepreneur job , even at the age of 24+ he
entered into responsibility life means he married my mom , my mom married in my
age “22” :P my mom also well educated she was a ARTS
student , she wanted to join in teacher job but due to family pressure she
couldn’t as in our family married women were not allowed to go outside for job.
At that time our
family was conservative family. Specially my grandpapa , as he was a
landlord at that time. His respect was greater for him. But after my birth
1991 after 5-6 months my papa got a job in central government job means in
Railway. at first he think about give up but he joined for me, at first he had
no interest still he joined as in railway you will get better payment even
central government job even many facilities are there that’s the reason even he
didn’t want he still join (EVEN MANY PERSONAL HIDDEN REASONS BEHIND HIS JOIN IN RAILWAY) , he wanted I should get better education, Even he has
many expectations on me. He wanted to see me a good person as well as a well
educated person. That’s the reason he tried his best to give me good education, “he can compromise with his dress &
his food but not with our (me & my brother) education or dress or food. He
sacrificed many things for us. Which hurt me most of the time what I gave him?”
When I grow up everyone started loving me due to my behavior & personality.
Even till my grand mama’s death I even never scolded by my parents as I was the
soul of my grandmamma, she loved me more than anyone else in my family. Of
course I was the only child at that time in my family. Our family was a very
small family even one son generation family means my papa, grandpapa & even
his papa are the only son of their parents. Even I proud that my family is a
well educated family. My grandpapa (My papa’s papa) was an agriculture officer
& my grandpapa (My mama’s papa) was a mathematics lecture. So in our family
education is the first priority .That’s the reason when my grandparents saw my
good performance in my school they felt proud for me & having a
granddaughter first.
My school days performance were very good, even every
teachers loved me at that time. I can’t remind when I stood second in my class
as throughout my school life I stood first. My performance was good throughout
my school life, if anyone wants ask anyone my parents or my relatives or my
past school teachers they can explain you better than me Don’t ask My friends
please :P But I am a super unlucky girl, I never go for any tuition, my
papa & mama was my teacher through out my school career they guided me
every time , MY PAPA IS MY MATH & SCIENCE GUIDE & MY MOM IS MY ARTS
GUIDE . If I got success if I am fundamentally clear in my school life due to
my parents & their guidance NOT ONLY ME BUT ALSO MY BROTHER TOO , HE GOT
BETTER % THAN ME IN 10TH BOARD . But tragedy always occurs in the last moment
& important moment in my life. Nearly at the mid time in 10th board my grand papa falls in
paralysis. actually he had gone for “4 DHAMA -THIRTHA YATRA”, due to his heart
attack he admitted in DELHI HOSPITAL & After his treatment my papa came
home with my grandpapa who was a paralysis patient, it indirectly harm my study
as one side my relatives were coming to see my grandpapa every time another
side my parents were busy in his service. I appeared my 10th board in too much disturbance. Finally
I got 80% in 10th that
was real tragedy for me. As I my dream was to secure more & even I have a
dream college where I actually wanna study. Due to so much disturbance my
papa decided to send me to hostel so that I can read well there , I could study
in government but my papa send me to a privet college as there I can get
good education + good hostel with all kinds of facilities even it will help me
to become self independent & become mature . KIIT is purely secure for
girls but sorry, not good for education purpose. But he did not know my
condition will be worst there. I am responsible for my worst condition , as
that was my first hostel life so I take everyone as my own , even I am very
serious for my education , I take everyone as my family that was my greatest
mistake I ever done at that time. My hostel life is from 2007 – 2014 YOU
ALSO CAN GET AN ARTICLE “MY HOSTEL LIFE” IN MY
BLOG THERE I HAVE ELABORATE MY WHOLE HOSTEL LIFE FROM
12TH BOARD TO TILL MY
5TH SEMESTER IN IIIT http://poemstoryshayari.blogspot.in/2013/06/my-hostel-life-from-12th-class-to-whole_4604.html .I don’t wanna write that further , with in these
period I rarely came my home that also for short period. In KIIT there is very
less holidays , even in IIIT . Now I feel little relax at least now I am
capable of earning little amount of money even now I understand the world &
I am that much confident if I’ll go anywhere in this world I can cope up with
any situation still sometimes I fear to take risk . I can stay alone &
fight but I can’t think about Further HOSTEL life.
I don’t know about 2014, whether it will bring success
or failure in my life but I’ll try my best to get success. I can’t tolerate my
failure more. I learnt one lesson from this world ,no one really exists in this
word who will help you to get success except your parents WITH
IN THESE 22 YAERS LIFE I have seen “my friends , my relatives , my brothers or
sisters no one really help me even motivate me how much my parents. My parents
are the real person who wants my success from their heart \TRUTH/“, In present world If u want to get success u have to
fight even have to be complicated , clever , sometimes you have to tell lie. Recently
my papa told me “if you wants to be Honest , truthful , helpful & good I
have no problem as I am always with you but you have to prepared for the worst
to tolerate this world & failure , you have to be strong , as now a day’s
these things have less value & nobody really care.”
Many People who call me - unsuccessful personality,
Unlucky. I love them as they are telling bitter truth bat me. I can accept d
Bitter Truth But False things Sorry ! I can’t. as I have seen those who hate me
from their heart they knowingly spread rumors about me so that I will spend my
time in there & can’t concentrate in my study, even I have a dream to do
something for my world & society that’s the reason I care for
my character & personality but I found many people knowingly
spread rumors about my name & joined my name. Even sometimes I have claimed
to do something wrong which I actually never done. I have many haters I don’t
know why, but I always follow my path , I love to be all-rounder I don’t think
I am doing anything wrong here. I am trying my best to fulfill my parents
dream. My papa sacrificed his dream to fulfill my
dream so now it’s my responsibility to fulfill his dream. His dream matters
most in my life as he has sacrificed for me. People say many things about me like I am very busy
person it’s true I AM. But can anyone try to know why I am. What! I am not a
Human, what! I don’t wanna enjoy or I don’t have any heart. But I have to do
many things in my life; I have many responsibilities, which gives me big
headache many times. I have
to give prize to many people who ever sacrificed their life for me. Otherwise I
can’t forgive myself till my death. I’ll die without peace , I wanna die in
peacefully. I wanna do lots of
thing in my life but my problem is my problematic & failure life gives me
big headache every time. Whenever I try to dream high my failure life comes in
front of me, people criticize me even my papa also slowly lose his hope which
is really intolerable for me most of the time. I can’t say in which state I am
in, even I have promised too many children. Children’s are my life & I have
a dream to do something for those kids who have no parents & living here
& there. One side my dream another side my bad luck & my unsuccessful
life. Don’t know how to handle all these. So now I am praying before my lord to
give me strength to get success in this complicated world. In this world no one
is really cooperative, seriously telling I don’t find anyone. Everyone run
after a successful person, if you get success everyone
will praise you no matter how you got, it doesn’t affect others.
If you become a failure personality everyone start blaming you no matter how
much hard labor you have done. Everything will go in vain. I have seen this in
everywhere. One side my own PERSONALITY hamper my Success another side I have
to Success to help others. Sometimes I feel it’s the best option I have to
change my personality to get Success, as this world will not easily believe you
no matter what you do. I have seen how much I try to be a good person people
still blame me, so it’s better to be like that how people wants. That’s the
best option for me to get success. As now my problem is with getting success.
If anyone tries to play game with me I also do this same. TIT FOR TAT RULE.
Sorry ,If you think that i'll adopt your rule finally in frustration , i wanna say that i'll n't . It's beyond my principle. but i'll do the same work in peaceful way. I am not copycat , i'll not follow your rules & path. i have my own. i'll follow that only. my path is PEACE & NOT TO HARM OTHERS .
Sorry ,If you think that i'll adopt your rule finally in frustration , i wanna say that i'll n't . It's beyond my principle. but i'll do the same work in peaceful way. I am not copycat , i'll not follow your rules & path. i have my own. i'll follow that only. my path is PEACE & NOT TO HARM OTHERS .
LASTLY WANNA SAY
Every life has some untold story , all talented people are not always successful , best example MY OWN PARENTS - so they want
me & brother should touch the feet of success. what he lacked & why he
failed he don't want we should face same , that's why he never do any
compromise with our study , he spend lots of money for our
education. My parents dream is my dream & their tear is mine too. If i can't do , i
can't be proof myself as a good daughter & will blame myself till death as
they matters & their love too. What i am doing & will do that
should make my parents feel proud , as i am the person who knows the
truth & who see their tear . so I become crazy whenever i think about
failure life, i know in which situation my papa give up & i don't want
same situation arise in my life , i am more mentally strong than
him & will proof once I am his daughter . Every life has a story
, that need to be heard & that need to be understood by all. Alas ,
few understand as most of them busy in reaching the top
position by downing others . This is the fact. Behind my Dream MANY REASONS ARE THERE -
I'LL SHARE REST STORY WHEN I'LL REACH AT THAT POSITION. It's not any
bad story , it's all about injustices what i faced in my life in
career issue & dream issue .I am waiting that day when my dream become
real, I know my God will help as he knows me ,My life purposes & my life truth that i never
do any wrong with anyone. He will help me , I have faith on him .
Ps- Don’t take it
personally or don’t be blame others for this article. I am not blaming anyone
here. So please don’t blame anyone for this. I am telling what’s in my heart.
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PS :- DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY , APOLOGIZE FOR MY SILLY MISTAKES !
Due to shortage of time i can't get time for edit . After write any article i post that immediately without edit when i get time i read my article fully & edit that , so please Ignore the Silly Mistakes , understand me & my situation . Take my article positively not personally . I always love to write any article with example so i pick my life story , i don't prefer to write others life even i don't like to interfere in others life . I HATE THIS !
SPECIAL REQUEST TO ALL ~ THANKS FOR READING :)