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My life is a kind of unique
life because I know what I faced, may it silly matters for others but I know
how all small small problems hamper your life in important phase. I always suggest my friends to read my own
written short biography , as there I have written everything about my past
, how I failed , what are the reasons behind my failure life .
I don’t want, why I failed my friends & others will face the same too. That’s
why I mainly focus on my problematic life, as I know the reasons of my
failure life. Nobody can understand the pain of broken dream until & unless
they face. I faced even many times.
My life
is unique even my problems too, I don’t know why I always face, may be my god
has written something different for me or he may have kept something better than
my choice. I am saying so because of my past “I have seen my problems are of unique
types, you can’t understand until unless you are in my situations” .so whenever I say why I failed to achieve my dream
most of the people take it as my excuses, even my own people too except my parents,
nobody really understand me & my problems, some also told me "everyone facing problem you are not special person who only failed
& faced , don’t give fake excuses". These words may seem rude
but purely fit with my life but what answer I’ll give them then? I know, I was
poor in handling the problems, so I faced lots of obstacles. But through my obstacles, I am learning life lessons even it make me stronger than before.
So when
anyone ask me WHAT IS LIFE IS, my answer always is -
“Life is what nobody can
understand until & unless they feel it & face it , everyone’s life is a
different story, nobody can truly understand you , your pain & pleasure ,
so never expect others will behave how you behave with them & how you want,
they will behave how they are.”
From my
home to school life I learn one lesson “help
the needy person, help everyone “even I love to help
everyone but what I got in return, did anyone help me? Yes, someone always
there to help me that’s -MY GOD.
It’s true my friends - my
friends & those whom I love much as a friend or sister or any relation all left
me alone in my struggle period but one who always there for me that’s my God he always there for me
& he will be. I marked that, I feel that. He indirectly helped me in many ways,
he gave me new lives many times. My god is my true friend & best friend.
But slowly I am losing my faith in humanity & becoming less emotional than
before because people take the advantage of it. I am talking about my own life
story – why I am saying my life is
unique life - why I lose faith in helping others - why I am less emotional ?
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This
is just a brief story of every phase of my life.
MY FAILURE LIFE IN SHORT –
My
failure life started from my 10th board –
I got 80%
, which is nothing in present world , as most of the students are getting
minimum 95% , I feel shame in saying as I stood first throughout
my school career even except this also I got many scholarships & Olympiads
too .
but In final in important phase of my life I got less mark than I deserve , no
doubt if I’ll give for rechecking I am sure I’ll get extra marks as it’s a
common mistakes in exam copy checking in ODISHA BOARD but I couldn’t give for rechecking
at that time as many of our relatives told “it’s not a good idea , here you can’t be benefited
as she can’t get her favorite College now, so forget & move on.” But my eyes were always
over my certificate as I knew I did n’t deserve that. but another reason behind
my less mark is – I never go for tuition from beginning except English , my
parents are my guide & tutor or anything you can say but in middle time my
grandpapa fall in paralysis so my parents engaged there even that time no tuition
teacher was vacant as all are engaged with their respective student , even who
also came for teaching purpose he was nothing but demand high pay like 3000/-
for one paper for 1 month but i didn’t like his teaching style as his teaching
style was for getting mark not for understanding means which I don’t like as I never
read like this before even my relatives were coming every time so it’s kind of
big disturbance , still I tried even I deserve more mark . Now also I wish to
go for rechecking not because I wanna show others who criticize me at that time
even now also , it has no value now but I want to get mark as per my labor .
That’s what I want.
2nd
–My 12th board
I faced
problem due to my own fault. 1st my own bad health condition, 2nd
my roommate issue, whom I helped much she cheat me 1st.
I marked one thing in my life – WHOM I BELIEVE
MUCH EVEN HELP MUCH THEY FIRST CHEAT ME, THEY TRY TO SPOIL ME FIRST, BUT WHY I
CAN’T UNDERSTAND. SAME STORY REPEAT ALWAYS IN MY LIFE. STILL I CAN’T CHANGE MY
NATURE BUT NOW I AM TRYING TO CHANGE MY NATURE.
I helped
her to get better mark in math & chemistry in 11th class , even
I gave change to live with me as she faced problems in her room where as her roommate
was very nice girl still she blamed her! but it hurt me when she cheated me
& tried to broke my friendship with my good friend (Who is my another room
mate) whom I actually loved a lot (rasmita) she was very nice girl , she is my
good friend too , but my another room mate can’t tolerate that she tried her
best to broke our friendship but for some period we broke up but finally in end
we united further . but her behaviour hurt me as she cheat me even didn’t care
for me , even she knew my health condition was poor & that was my 12th
board . Whereas when she need I helped her.
Medical preparation
time –
After 12th
board when I appeared my 1st medical entrance exam I fall in sever fever, for
that reason I can’t even appear my CBSE PMT exam at that time, even when I
appeared after 2 years (READ MY BIOGRAPHY FULL YOU CAN UNDERSTAND- MY LIFE IS
LIKE AN OPEN DIARY -http://poemstoryshayari.blogspot.in/2013/06/my-hostel-life-from-12th-class-to-whole_4604.html) at that time I suffered from BRAIN MALARIA just after CBSE PMT so I couldn’t gave Manipal PMT as it took near about 2-3 weeks to get back my standard health. I don’t know it’s
a coincidence or my bad luck or I am trying beyond my God’s wish? I don’t know
anything but its hurts even it hurts my parents too, so I decided to left my
biology career as I faced lots of obstacles for this. It’s kind of unique coincidence,
which protect me from achieve my dream. These are true, not fake excuses; my
family is my eye witness: P
My whole
engineering career
After
entering into engineering I lost hope to do better as my marks were very bad in
1st internal but I tried my best to do best even did but still I
couldn’t get how much I deserve , I am not a 6 or 5 pointer or less than that ,
but not also a 9 pointer too . Hope you can guess. But I always wish to get 9 point,
this was kind of dream which never fulfilled in my whole engineering career. As
I wanna change my branch to electrical, I love that branch than computer at first but now I love computer science.
Behind my all problematic life I blame myself – at first I had no enemy
, I was like normal I had also friends , I rarely stay in my room after class
end 1st semester , many memories are there which still i treasure in
my heart , our whole branch mates KHATI PLACE (GOSSIP PLACE) room number 202 .
I remember all those days but I cut my own leg in my own hand even I had no
problems with my roommates too but I can’t tolerate if someone suffer in front
of me , even someone doing wrong with someone. I helped one of my roommates
what was my biggest mistakes as she didn’t realize when she told me to leave
the room. I helped her , I scold my own branch mate , I fight with my another
room mate but in final all take revenge from me unitedly , I became enemy of
everyone & she loved by everyone in final , I became alone but she got all
friends . Even she forget what I did for her, even she didn’t try to unite all
, how i tried. I tried my best to unite my roommates whenever they fight, but
she didn’t help me even she left me alone in my problem time , but i
know why she did , i am not blaming her she is good even i understand her
situation but my choices are always wrong . Which hurts
me even everyone knew my story , no one can say I did any injustice with anyone
, even if I scold my another room mate that’s because to bring peace but she
took it another sense & wants to take revenge from me because of this as i
always blame her & scold her & did n’t support her , but what she was
doing that’s was wrong , that’s her 1st hostel life still what she
was doing with my another room mate i could n’t tolerate that , that’s a kind of
injustice . which i hate most in my life .
2nd
help I help a guy who is purely idiotic, which is my biggest mistakes I took
him as friend I told him to stay away from bad people & bad works (no doubt
i never talk with him face to face everything done in facebook chatting , so i
stop chatting after that as i faced lots of problem because due to this facebok
chatting , this facebook is the begin of my problematic life specially chatting
as I rarely prefer to talk with any guy face to face except few with whom I very
close)
but in final he also became my enemy as I told his secrete before all but I did
because I wanted he should change himself as I took him as a friend even I
can’t harm my friends & he was from a good family , I always harmed by
others because of my friends. He even didn’t help me in my worst period, that’s a kind of
stupid friendship choice I did ever in my life
3rd
help –
when my roommate
whom I helped much – she told me to leave the room in my 6th semester
end time means during 6th semester exam time, which hurt me badly, I never
expect that from her, I tried my best to clarify all misunderstandings still
she became very selfish, it’s a kind of as usual problem during my semester
exam time at least one important problem arise in my life. I became habituated
facing problems & solving problems during my exam time so I can’t perform
well as I always in disturbing & depressing state. but I wanna thanks T.T MAM (student disciplinary committee) who helped me even she gave me a single
room in junior block – where I lived alone in 3 bedded room . I felt so happy
as I gonna live alone, no one will be there to disturb me in room during exam time,
but at that time, one junior came who wanna live with me as she could n’t read
peacefully in her room, at 1st it’s quite a hard task to allow a
girl whom I did n’t know even after requesting a lot i got this room in last semester
as no one get this chance too even I faced lots of problem helping others even
my parents also suggest me don’t cut your leg further as they well known about
my all problems, but after knowing everything I allowed her to live with me. As she is a pure cultured
Muslim girl, she also well behaved girl. so I love her behavior but
I did n’t know for her I have to face her enemies too , one of her previous room
mate disturb me indirectly even some girls also helped her , then they became
united & torture me outside of my room . I could n’t understand , I did n’t
know them so why they were doing like this , even some of my side room listen
music in loud in mid night during my GATE ENTRANCE exam time even I was staying
in 5th floor so I could n’t complain my lady matron in night also . So
many different kinds of problems I faced outside the room, thanks god inside I never
faced any kind of problem which can hamper my study. but I found that she
didn’t love me that much how much she love my friends where as I helped her a
lot during exam time , I tried my best to clarify her all doubts . Even I am
happy she secured better mark after living with me .she is good student but in
her previous room she couldn’t get study environment.
After helping so many I found that I never get anything except pain. So
now a days I am trying to not to help anyone except poor, as this world is purely selfish.
No one truly loved you everyone loves you while you help but once you stop
helping they also stop loving you. Which actually hurts me? Even I found that
my life is a kind of unique life – as whom I love much in friendship they first
detach from me in any way, I become habituated with such kind of pain. it hurts
me even I feel shame on myself as I am unable to understand others , sometimes
I ask one question where is my fault . why people hate me without any mistakes
. if you have any doubt about own written biography ask any of my friends too I
hope they will say true , at least if some disagree with this , some also there
may they hate me inside but they can’t say what I told all are wrong or fake . I know what I have
written all are TRUE even 100%, no fake, ask anyone. But I don’t
know if they will modify the story how they modify my life in college.
READ MY FULL BIOGRAPHY U CAN UNDERSTAND -
READ MY FULL BIOGRAPHY U CAN UNDERSTAND -
PS :- DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY , APOLOGIZE FOR MY SILLY MISTAKES !
Due to shortage of time i can't get time for edit . After write any article i post that immediately without edit when i get time i read my article fully & edit that , so please Ignore the Silly Mistakes , understand me & my situation . Take my article positively not personally . I always love to write any article with example so i pick my life story , i don't prefer to write others life even i don't like to interfere in others life . I HATE THIS !
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