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Life is totally unpredictable, what
we want we rarely get that. I am the most unlucky one, who always miss the
golden opportunities.
I am talking about my today’s experience – today we have a placement drive for HP in LAKSHYA, I was happy as this is a MNC company,
everyone’s dream to get a job in MNC. I am not an exceptional one. But this
time my resume even my dressing sense everything was perfect + I reach in time,
unfortunately I did blunder mistakes in my aptitude test. I don’t know while
solving I felt that verbal and nonverbal part was quite easy, 2 questions I guess
otherwise other questions I attempt mindfully. Yes, I am poor in technical but
now I gonna rectify myself here. Have to prepare myself what I didn’t
prepare within 4-5 years means engineering + gate. Technical means coding in
C/C++/JAVA mainly as I am good in database, html, css, somehow in PHP (I think
so) . I was good in java but I have
to revise it again. I feel shame on myself today, when I tried to appear all
question still I was confuse in some questions, as I never prepared for such
kind of test till now. Frankly speaking. Yeah, I attempted once even selected;
now I am thinking that may be due to my luck otherwise today question was quite
easy. I feel shame on myself as I couldn’t understand where I actually did my mistakes,
but I did that I am conform, may be my mind was in out
of order, THINK SO.
But
this is true when I was in my engineering for getting placement, placement training
was given to us but I didn’t attend even one class except some English class as I love GD and English. I can’t
blame my college here , they had given us even tried their best and many good
companies also came but I didn’t have interest that’s why I didn’t sit even in
1 class , as I fear if I’ll sit then there may be a
chance they can give my name for company placement , if I’ll deny it
then our college faculty may deduct my mark (MY
HEART FELT WORDS WHICH I SHARE TODAY), blew , many things were rooming
in my mind at that time , as I didn’t have interest in job career I wanna do
something different like M-TECH OR LAW. But now I
feel, I am the dumpiest one in this whole world. Who always do the dump kind of
work? Huh. Seriously, now I feel shame on myself. But
this is true that I didn’t have interest in company job IN
PAST.
No
doubt in today HP recruitment time the recruiter told us the luxurious life of
software engineer ,I agree with him, but at that time one thing came in my mind
– do anyone know me for my work except my family and my friends. I’ll earn lots
of money for my family they’ll be happy and enjoy but what I’ll get in return money , lots of money ,
WHAT’S ABOUT MY DREAM :- TO GAIN A NAME IN SOCIETY or make my unique name in society .No one is permanent in this world, no one , one
day everyone will left you alone even your shadow too (when bad time comes) so
for whom I’ll care and give up my dream no doubt now I am alone and I don’t get
any supporter but when I think about Modi ji (Our PM) ,
kejerawal and many people like them who gained name from ZERO level , did they
were from a reputed or richest family then why I can’t dream high. But in
this present world to make my dream real in the first step : MONEY IS THE ONLY SOLUTION . That I can get
through a good company. This also true, in good companies you can flourish your
talent, that’s why I am interested.
If
I’ll talk about my present status, now I need a good company badly, Forget
about name and fame, that’ll come after. I can earn it even after marriage if I’ll
get a supportive family then otherwise no marriage for my dream. But Now I badly need to well establish myself in society.
I still remember when I was in IIIT college, In my 2nd and 3rd year time I started my preparation
for law and I also have CLAD book till now with me,
I had decided to left IIIT and join in Sociology and law to get what I want (My roommates may heard about it when I talk about this
with my parents or my close friends may see the CLAD BOOK while I was preparing
or with me). Then I think , if I’ll go through this career then I’ll be
old to reach at my goal that’s why I try to concentrate on my engineering
career and try to get what I want in different way , but now I think I was
fool. Now I don’t know which step I should take to get a peaceful life , I run after peace now , as failure after failure due to
my high dream everyone get frustrated from me except myself , who still have
hope. I still have faith one day I’ll get what I want J
Now
my present goal is get placed in a company then make my own name in society
either through writing or through social work or
through business or all of these ,THAT MY TIME AND MY SITUATION WILL DECIDE. Gonna concentrate on one, as HP recruiter told us today
“CONCENTRATE ON ONE GOAL FIRST” , now my goal is to get placed in a MNC Then
further life let MY TIME WILL DECIDE , as I know what I want in my life . I can’t
spoil my life for others as no one gonna
cry for you when you will old and realize what I did in my life except EARN MONEY
, But now I need a job for me to get peace but it doesn’t mean I’ll be mean ,
all are mean , I am not the exceptional wherever
I go I try to do something good for them. NOW MY
PRESENT STATUS SAYS I NEED A JOB BADLY L
I m the true dumpiest one - this things tells everything ABOUT ME
!!!
TECH
MATH
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