NEVER STOP DREAMING HIGH , MIRACLE CAN HAPPEN AT ANY TIME

Life is fully unpredictable but life salute to those who work hard to make their dream true.

Whenever I look back I feel like I lost many golden opportunities in my life ether it comes to STANFORD BIO DESIGN OR SYMBIOSIS PUNE.

I selected in both but never tried from my side even I made up to 85% competitions but I scared of getting rejected in end as I take myself as a dump, if I can try for IIIT – at least I should try from my side in above these 2– who knows when miracle will happen but after serial failures I actually fed off from my life and lost my all confidence but after getting torture from my life now I am strong from inside – NOW I AM IN DIFFERENT FORM , I’LL NEVER EVER LET MYSELF DOWN FOR ANYTHING AND ANYONE. I’ll prove myself best and I’ll work hard as per that too. Let my labor shine through my work even my luck is worst, at least my LORD is with me.

I remember – I tried my level best to get medical – I lost my health too just because of this , I still remember how many nights I couldn’t sleep just because of my dream but when I didn’t get medical all treated me as a dump student and everyone start scolding me "why I lose my years for running after medical" .

That’s why I couldn’t concentrate in my engineering too in initial days as I never ever interest in engineering , that’s why I told my parents to left my college after 1 year of engineering as I just fed off from my life , what I am actually doing . that’s why I started preparing for clad exam too (https://www.instagram.com/p/BSGVb3-hcuJ/?taken-by=swetaleenapanda ) and IAS exam as I never ever had interest in engineering in beginning – I joined just to see my family happy as when I selected for IIIT at that time my whole family become happy – it just like they finally got a hope after a big storm in my life and I can’t make them sad that’s why I choose this option as for me my family matters most even I didn’t have any better options too.

Then in engineering , I may got success still I didn’t have much interest much that’s why I faced lots of problem finally during my 3^rd year end time I came across soft computing which is MY TYPE SUBJECT means match with my interest and personality too (Bio+engineering) . I love soft computing that’s why I did my AIS (artificial immune system for computer security)– Minor project based on that (MY YOU TUBE VIDEOS ON AIS - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nv-gXXavX9s  ,  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDWwybvn-KA) , then in 4^th year I came across AI and BIO BIOINFORMATICS , both are Bio + Creative + Engineering + Algorithm mixture subjects , which is kind of my type subject , that’s why finally I fall in love with engineering AND I started preparing for M-TECH in 4^th year and got good mark in GATE too that’s why my parents gave me chance otherwise they’d never ever give as I already disappoint them many time . They find hope that I’ll do better at least M-TECH and I’ll finally establish in my life with my favorite career in Bioinformatics and AI or soft computing. Again I disappoint them.

Again I selected for ARIES – visiting students (http://www.aries.res.in/~vspa/ - this is that link, http://www.aries.res.in/ side)

Then I selected for Stanford bio-design for Internship program – https://www.instagram.com/p/BS7vgLjhYIS/ 

Finally I selected for Symbiosis Pune - https://www.instagram.com/p/BOoCde0Bvh3/?taken-by=swetaleenapanda

I don’t know what is in my luck and what god has kept in my life but I always have faith on my God that he knows everything and one day he is going to give something what I really deserve.

Ha! Whereas Now I am just struggling for getting a proper job ( My favorite companies - IT , Media and Entertainment (as i already worked in a media industry as an intern and i love to work in media sector specially) , Healthcare , Food ) with proper package (at least 5-6 lakh – I know why I deserve and why I want as I have some responsibilities) , This is how your life play better game with you, once you ignore the best opportunity in your life it leads you towards the hell of life , that’s why now I am ready for being flexible and ready to challenge my life . This is the real pathetic situation in my present life. My life is full of ups and down. I have seen many worst days and better days, My life is neither smooth nor full of thorn but my life is flavor of all mixture but one thing I just want to share with all – NEVER EVER LOSE YOUR SELF CONFIDENT AND NEVER EVER LET PEOPLE DOWN YOUR SELF IMAGE, YOU KNOW YOUR CAPABILITY AND YOUR WORTH – Never ever let others to decide your worth based on certain parameters or criteria otherwise you’ll never ever win in life race.

I have seen many worst days in my life and I never ever lie too – during my 11^th I was a very good student but suddenly due to my health issue I couldn’t perform well during my 12^th even at that time situation also not in my favor but through one grad my whole grad and my whole life you can’t decide , It doesn't mean i failed in exam or poor grad but how much i deserve i couldn't score as compare to my other academic career.

TALENT can’t be measure through Grads but through your knowledge as well as interest as most of us just read to get job but education meaning should not be like that , it should be practical oriented , that's why i strongly believe in Research kind of work.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BS7vgLjhYIS/

After a long time , again some memories etched in front of my eyes -It's really funny to see when your dream works in different ways - one side you couldn't crack MBBS when you need it most ,whereas in another side or Engineering project BIO NANO ROBOT FOR CURING CANCER AND HEREDITARY disease and your knowledge got selected even after 4 years of engineering , I don't like to study but what I study that never comes in exam that's why I Am THE DUMPIEST ONE , I read just 1 day before exam - few believe this fact as I always busy in my life with laptop but I know what I do with my laptop ;) :D

Someone should check my browse history ;): D

One side after spending 4 years in tear you finally got result still you can't go Delhi for next round - that's why I repent even I didn't tell this to my parents too as I feel like - WHAT IS GOING IN MY LIFE - I couldn't faith on God that time as I had 2 options either this or I have to prepare for M-TECH that also for BIOINFORMATICS AND AI career, these 2 branches I was really crazy for even dream to get. Again I failed to get these 2 branches in my favorite colleges. AGAIN "BIO" RUIN MY TIME EVEN MY PATIENCE. Finally I fed off and come SSU for mental peace through Yoga.

FACT OF MY LIFE!!!

LESSON - You don't have any control over your LUCK but you have control over your LABOR & TALENT - You don't know when it'll give you golden opportunity.

SO NEVER EVER STOP DREAMING - ALWAYS FIGHT FOR YOUR DREAM AND NEVER LET OTHERS TO DOWN YOUR SELF CONFIDENCE WHAT I LOST AFTER SEVERAL FAILURES - I didn't fail , I fail to get what I wanted as I am extreme level of choosy when it comes to my dream !!!