TIME TO SAY GOOD BYE

Two year at this college – how can I sum up all the experiences, I don’t know?

I still cannot believe how fast time went by. These 2 years gave me a good chance to experience a very special and unique culture and taught me nay life lessons which will be helpful in my future life. I got to know so many new things: different kinds of food, different clothes, different customs, different opinions etc. and in the end I can say! I have some wrong believes about some people now those are crystal clear before me. I understand where I should move on – if I want to build my future, as mind set match matters a lot than anything what I believe. Although I grow in a multi-culture place during my childhood days but childhood day’s heart and brain and present heart and brain there is a huge difference. Well! Life is all about learning and move forward as per that.

There were also so many remember-able days for me, specially my first year. But in second year – from the beginning of 2^nd years there were so many issues created in a queue - which never left my side finally I frustrated, left everything for the shake of PEACE.

Finally I concentrated on my study and myself but so many life lessons I learnt from these 2 years –

1)   Never ever disclose your weakness or problem in public – like what I did, ha! My life is like an open diary and now my diary becomes like my enemy. I wrote to tell some of my close people about my problem but I was innocent enough to realize this fact that – blogger is public platform and everyone is reading that. Problem is in everyone life and I am not the unique piece. but my problems look giant and become giant due to my own fault – although I never ever did any kind of mistake in my life neither I hurt anyone nor I spoil anyone’s life whereas my life was spoiled . But how can you make other people understand about this fact – I always fail to prove myself that why I always guilty. Here also without any mistake I faced problem – one is regional issue (mostly all think Oriya people are DUMP- until unless you ready to spend on them or good looking. Even you have talent nobody cares – who cares about your talent in MBA ) and second may be I am too serious due to my entrepreneurship (that’s why In the beginning I joined in entrepreneurship club but I didn’t have sooty that’s why it’s very difficult to communicate with outer world .) but in the end I can say – Neither I misbehave anyone Nor I did anything wrong with anyone except my educational or character matters as these both are important for me as from my engineering I want to make my b-plan successful that’s why after coming SSU – first I showcase my idea collaborating with one of my batch mate (ManiKanta) and our senior , I beg help to make SSU in spotlight through video making an YouTube channel where we can show case case study or marketing to others good governance in YouTube channel for publicity . as always I may have idea but I can’t execute properly as nobody listen me and nobody help me , as very few want to help you until unless you are really close to them and I am just like JUST FRIEND for everyone. But still I never give up and I tried then finally I decide that I have to Concentrate on myself and my dream than people and beg help to people.

2)   If you fight, you can lose. But if you do not fight, you have already lost. Now you are young, you are bright – you can do everything now only.

3)   Some people’s life is not too easy going – if you take your life as a baby step, I mean how a baby learn to walk. They walk one step – they fall down. But what do they do? They get up again. Then they walk two steps. They fall again. But no matter how often they fall: In the end, they can walk. Because they try again and again. The whole secret of success is to stand up once more then you fail. Keep this in your hearts. It doesn’t matter how long it takes you. What matters is if you get there. If not by big steps, then by little steps. Exactly as children do. And don’t be afraid. Exactly as children aren’t.

4)   Each one of you has so much potential. Make the best out of it. That also means: Make the best of this education. You have this great chance to study here in this very special college. Some of you may only notice it when they go out and face real life. But those who use this college to its best, will be prepared for every struggle. Now I am ready for all kinds of struggles.

Finally I just want to share some inside stories about me –

Before coming here – I had got many good opportunities from different colleges from PUNE as well as Bangalore too. but I choose this college just because it is something different – as I just fed off from my struggling life – I came here for peace with study , I just want to make myself enlighten through meditation , prayer and yoga (this is the real true fact) , why I came here . before I came here my life was kind of messy as I just leave my all hopes when I didn’t get my favorite branch in my favorite colleges . I spend 8 lakh for the shake of mental peace, which I completely lost due to my struggling – high hope and deep pressure, but I was really a fool (forget). I learnt mental peace will come from within and nobody can give you that but YOGA, MEDITATION can help you drastically and these actually work for me. Now I can handle any kind of stress, that’s why I decided to move other place (Bangalore) for my dream. As I learnt in my life how to be flexible.

I learnt most valuable life lessons –

·        There is no place for good heart people in this world, be duplicate and stay happy.

·        Money Hai tho honey Hai (100% true)

·        Beauty beats talent and skills (100% true)

·       Use people for your benefit then only you can be successful in life otherwise you’ll be in same position in entire life 

Finally I just want to thanks my parents for tolerating me –

1^st Kiit – more than 2 lakh in study

2^nd – medical preparation – aakash institute – more than 1.50 lakh

3^rd – Engineering – 7 lakh (Education only )

4^th – M-Tech preparation + other coaching ( 1 lakh)

5^th – MBA (8 lakh)

No words to them for their patience, I can say they are the best parents in the entire world – who gives so much scope to their girl child to become so much educated. I still remember when I decided to join MBA – my brother also doing MBA in same time in SSU (8 lakh) and our new house construction already started for future Agri-Business purpose in our home town (BALASORE- https://www.instagram.com/p/BH17ThCBr6p/?taken-by=swetaleenapanda ). One side my brother’s education – 8 lakh another side we try to regain our Agri-business which once lost. Still my papa never said No – he told me yes! I promise you you’ll study and he gave me chance and spend money for me and I don’t think in that situation may be other parents force their child to go for job (girls , even after spending so much money) , whereas my parents are different . they gave me everything in my life even they also allow me to marry someone as per my choice but as per some strict rules as I belong to Hindu Brahmin family – they care about that much , as my father is a hard core HINDU religious personality . He told me – I gave you all sorts of freedom in life even makes you so much educated but something you also should care about and I promise to myself I am going to care about that too as they matters a lot for me as their importance play a big role in my life

VOTE OF THANKS TO JUNIORS

I didn’t get time to spend with you guys but I heartily love you all.

Till now I didn’t have any kind of bitter memories with any juniors except during DSN – that also just because of SCRIPT as I consider myself as a good script writer and I don’t like any kind of bad script and do drama on that . I am very image conscious person and I am stubborn at that time when it comes to my image , my dream and my expertise area.

Due to confession page – some words hurt me indirectly, even they didn’t tell me anything. I don’t know why I react so much also but as per my prior experience I found out that – south people always scold to family and parents even in small matters That’s the only thing I hate most as within 2 years of journey I found out that, that’s why I angry otherwise there was no other reason even that was not on me too. I should not react in that way too.

May be due to cultural difference as well as mind-set difference – may be such kind of miss communication happened but my intention was not to hurt or harm anyone otherwise i got many chances within 1 year of time to hurt or harm many of my juniors and many times too ,where as I DON'T HAVE SUCH RECORD EVEN INTENTION EVER.

But yes ! I just fed off before , due to many reasons –

1)    Although I am from a good colleges with just good grade still I treated as dump – I did not know how to behave as an intelligent , no matter whatever I say and suggest – everyone find mistakes.

2)    I am not so bad communicator or speech but I turned into due to over consciousness. I am also not so poor performer as well as presenter but yes! I always do deep research so I need more time than other people. My name to my performance were down due to most of my friends which also main reason to lose my self-confidence too and that hurt me badly and that was the main reason why I silent after a period. As I learnt that –most of the things here were pre planned – who is going to win and which position.

3)  I didn’t get much scope - I know in which situation I came here and what were my expectations , everything just ruined slowly and gradually.

4)   People have very ill mind-set towards Oriya people (I don't know why, they just feel like all odiya people are kind of illiterate , bad looking and don't have money to spend- what i find out) – until unless you spend money on them.

5)  Everyone just say we belong to you but truth is everyone belongs to those who have scotty, have time and money to spend on picnic and tours etc. . . . then only you can have gang and gather friends . But unfortunately I couldn’t give much time and spend money on anyone as I don’t like. Still those who love me without spending time and money – I truly love them and I wish to be with them in future too as I hate the selfish and mean people.

6) I tried my level best to make better relationship with juniors (BBA TO OTHER GRADS) to my seniors (My seniors to super seniors) – may be some people don’t want that that’s why MY VOICE was not heard properly and I treated as a bad person but those who know me well – they can keep their hands on their heart and can say – I AM NOT A BAD PERSON IN CORE AND I NEVER EVER HURT ANYONE ELSE , "THIS TIME - I AM SERIOUS".

 That’s why I am saying to my future – I AM READY –

1)    I’ll more focus on money, as in past I worked in many companies or can say project work as free but now I realize this is not the trait of a true business personality. NO WORK WITHOUT MONEY AS I REALIZE MONEY CAN BUY ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD.

2)    I am not money minded but yes! I hate to depends on anyone even though my papa is a railway employee (central government) and my brother is also working still I love my self-respect much. that’s why I want to earn as I learnt – I never ever did anything wrong till now with anyone – one thing I didn’t do that was spend money on people for enjoyment and spending time  , only money can buy some temporary people but those who are permanent they’ll always be as they stay within your heart.

3)  Focus more on myself and my goal than people and their words as sometimes some people confuse you and down your self-confidence , so now if someone try to down your self-confidence try to down their also so that they’ll realize this pain – TIT FOR TAT RULE.

These words are not from me, but it shows my feelings: Goodbyes are not forever.

Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I’ll miss you. Until we meet again!

(PAST ME - I give more priority to my self-respect and for the shake of PEACE sometimes I stop involving myself in so many thing even though I have huge interest. I don’t want to disturb anyone who don’t want to make friendship with me from core. I love those who love me and I simply left those who HATE me or AVOID me as I love to maintain peace that’s it . This is all about me , I don’t like double face that’s why I keep myself out from them so that they’ll be happy even I too.

BUT NEW ME – IT DOESN’T MATTER WHETHER YOU LOVE ME OR NOT – IF I HAVE WORK I’LL NEVER STOP PUSHING MYSELF UNTIL I GET THE THINGS DONE ;) )

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