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Every life has a story either success or failure. As an I dreamer I know how it feels, when your
dream break into pieces. My life is like an open source story for everyone; it
open source as anyone can read it for not repeating the mistakes I did in my
past. I am open to all , as I believe no one can hide the truth then why I’ll
try , because I know even I try I can’t , Truth
spread everywhere easily either as a rumors or as a real truth. But
whatever I know no body says real truth, truth always mix with at least 10% lie,
because it just like sound which goes from one medium to another medium mix
with some noise even we try to filter we can’t do it 100%, some noise part
still there like wise in present world truth is like sound which always mix
with some lie. But this is my story which I am
writing by own , may you people take it lie or fake , it doesn’t matter for me
, still I’ll say what I am writing that’s 98% true , as I am also not 100%
perfect. 2% fake or lie to save myself from people. Because I know the world in
better way.
My
life is like a fuzzy logic, where you give one input but it gives output with
lots of error even I try to use hit and trial method always end up with 50% similarity, I means to say whatever I dream till
now I rarely achieve that it doesn’t mean I never try, I always try my best but
end up with pain or something different or nearly similar to my dream. That’s
why now days I keep many options to make myself flexible. One side my won bad life another side fake news about me ,
make myself more depress.
People love to spread fake news about my identity and my career
issue and love issues. Let me clarify that.
My identity
I
am from a well educated family My grand papa (My papa’s papa) was Agriculture officer + LAND
LORD from his forefathers time, My grand papa (My
mom’s papa) is Mathematics lecture, My Papa is post graduate in MATHEMATICS from a famous
university (UTKAL UNIVERSITY), My mom
is graduate in ARTS, My Little brother
is doing MBA In finance or marketing (continuing In SRI UNIVERSITY-Ravisankar-ART OF
LIVING). I am only graduate from
IIIT (My little brother has not waste time
like me that’s why we are now same in education as I spoiled my 2 years time in
“+3 – zoology honors + medical preparation”) Now
, I am trying
to pursue my career either in be law or journalism or computer related or researched
based or social work fields. I am proud of
my family, as we all are well educated but belong to upper cast that also from Brahmin
family so it’s a kind of punishment in present world because neither reservation
system works in education or in job. Even we can’t get job as per our education
but money matters a lot so we all have to do job. So every life has a story - My
life match with my papa , he couldn’t make his dream true that’s why I’ll not
give up , No means no , neither I’ll marry nor I’ll divert mind in any other
work till I get what I want. Because my dream is to make my parents feel proud
for me. one day that time
will surely come, about my nationality – sorry to
say – I don’t know – where we born it doesn’t mean that should be our native
place or originality , that’s our birth place, neither I am Oriya nor Bengali nor
telgu or Tamil or behari, I am belongs to all, those who love me and help me to
get success I am for them even I’ll work for them. I can’t love who don’t love
me , so I don’t have any native place or original place where I origin , I have one birth place where I born BUT where I’ll die with
pride that’ll be my native place.
My career
I
am passed from my 10th board in the year 2006
then 12th 2008 then joined in +3 in
zoology honors + medical coaching for 2 years means I continue my education till
2010 then joined in engineering till 2014.My childhood dream was to become a doctor but end
up with engineer, then I dream for m-tech but end up with job, now what’s my
next step I already planned it with many options still I prepared for the
worst. No, dispose of my life plan or career plan till I get, it can be law or journalism or computer related or researched based or social work, I show
my interest in these then what my life is going to give I don’t have any idea,
but I believe whatever I’ll do that should be best one, what mistakes I did in
past I don’t wanna repeat same. So no exposes of my career plan till I get what
I want. But now my present status is – I need a Job
badly to keep myself in a stable state. Then I’ll process further , now I am 23 + years , so I have planned within 3 years I may
reach at that position what I always wish for !
My Love issues
Yet,
I don’t have any as no one love me how much I do, yes! It’s true my love issues
starts from when I joined in engineering. After that it
goes, like people come and goes like tides in sea. I believe it’s better
to flirt till you get a perfect match than spoil someone’s life. I love to
flirt that’s why I chose internet , internet is best medium to flirt which
start with open your laptop and ends with shut down your laptop , I believe in true love , even I believe love is blind
but you need a perfect person for love. You can’t love all, till now I have many
crashes, its list is long that’s why I never hurt in love as I get new one
after that. You know there is a benefit having crush,
your love transfer from one body to another as per your place. But I know one day I gonna end up with true love with a
perfect person.
I don’t need a perfect person, I need
a true one.
I don’t need a beautiful face; I need
a beautiful heart person.
I don’t need a successful person
, I need a hard working person as I know I can make him successful if he’ll
cooperate with me . I have ideas but I need to implement in real life with
cooperation. I need a hard working person as I believe in hard work than talent.
I don’t need a rich person, I need
a rich person who is rich from heart, and I hate narrow minded people.
I don’t need a close hearten person;
I need an open one, who cans share his everything.
In
total , I need a good person no matter how he looks or what he do , I need a
good , hard working person who has ability to get success by own not using his
parents money.
Even
my parents are stop searching such kind of person for me, as they know they can’t
even they know me well I can’t adjust with wrong one. So they stop searching
for me, when I was in engineering 3 most best marriage proposals I had got, all were
my relatives means distance known Oriya, Brahmin people – one is USA Based Oriya doctor, another
is IAS, 3rd one is IIT engineer he also USA based, but I didn’t wanna marry as I knew they might
have money but I can’t be sure I can make my own image , what’s my life’s end
dream. My
own image matters a lot than money. I
am not lying; I know them who gave me proposals. I know
if my parents chose guys for me he’ll surely best for me – RICH + HIGHLY
EDUCATED but I don’t need these 2 , I need a person who helps me to get
success + having own image in society. For me NAME has greater priority than
MONEY. Even my family is not so strict
in love marriage they known me well , as till now I don’t have any love issue ,
I may flirt with many in internet which I told my
parents too but in real life I keep myself distance from boys in general ,
I love to talk with those who are good and well behaved. My parents have faith
on me even my choice that I can’t chose any wrong guy for me who disrespect
them or me. I need a good person first + educated one,
he may be from any place in INDIA or WORLD, I don’t have any bias feelings as I need a good person who can understand me even handle me,
I can help him to get success + get name but In return I also need freedom for
my social work + make my own image, so I don’t have problem with either
people or place but I don’t have idea on rumors. Let
rumors in their place I am going to live my life in my way.
These are real truth about me. I wrote
this article to clarify some doubts , I don’t have much time to write a big article
as due to diversified career choice + worst luck , I have to work hard as per
that . Sorry, if I made any silly mistake in my writings.
