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A new Life begins with a child’s first cry
and end with? We can’t say even predict. We all enter into life through same
process but day by day time by time everything change. We can’t even predict
our future; you even don’t know when everything will change which can change
your whole life too. I asked many people what is life is? And I got many
different kinds of answers like
Some answered me - Life is mixture of pain and pleasure and sometimes it’s very painful too
and some answered something different like it’s
mysterious like a woman, means they are trying to say all women are
complicated and secretive, ha, I agree but not 100%. Its ok! life is mysterious,
we all know it even we can’t imagine our life too, what gonna be happen next ,we
can’t say? Neither I nor anyone else. but when we’ll ask someone to define the pain
then we will get lots of explanation – my
view on pain is – pain is what your heart can feel but it’s not necessary
eye should shade tears or feelings which you can share with others. most
painful moment when some pain gives you lots of pain inside still you have to smile,
if someone is going to die I feel his/her pain is less than those who have no
one as at least that person is conformed that he/she is going to die and no one
can avoid it but when it comes to having no one, this moment is very painful
neither you can show nor you can share otherwise this cruel world eat your
flesh in pieces in living mode, bitter true fact. Just look at those girls who
have no one – their final destination is prostitution or slave or made servant ,
if you are boy then your final destination is criminal or prostitution or non
paid laborer , have you ever think about them , can you imagine their life ,
their life is beyond of our imagination as we are living in a beautiful
environment . these are the people who born unlucky or can say they come this
world with some kind of punishment of their previous birth’s sin, but what
about those who have everyone still they are facing same – many examples are
there - in this competitive world no one can see your success, no one means no
one , forget about friends even your very close people too, whom you love a lot, that can be anyone either
your husband or brother or sister or relatives etc. no one is truly yours. Real
Problem arise even you try to detach yourself from all sorts of emotions still you
can’t even you know fake emotions have no value in this world it only can spoil
your value and time. Now days competitions are too high, children’s are born
with complicated minds where from the beginning we teach them how to be a good
competitor not a good lover. No value of human but value of achievements. How
to be superior to all , now a day’s everywhere we teach this as a prime study
from beginning means when a kids start learning . I have seen now a day’s how
parents trying to change the minds of children into complicated one like
example- see your class topper , he can do anything , don’t you feel shame you call him your friend but your mark is less
Don’t play with him; your standard is below to him.
I always wish to that child (class topper) as my son/daughter. At least I’ll feel proud of myself.
How much money I have spend for your study, what you did.
Don’t you feel shame to call him/her your friend, see his result and yours?
Like this many examples are there, which ultimately change the minds of children not a good competitor manner but it turn into complicated.
These
are the silly things; I hope you all know about it. But nobody express so
openly like me. Ok let it is. But this is the only reason, why now a day’s humanity value is
going to vanish from world, which is not a good symbol.
So here I explained about pain from my
point of view, life is mixture of pain and pleasure. Everyone knows even we all
face it in our daily life, nothing new, Right!!!
Now I gonna write a story on a person-
how that person got success in the end ,
how life played game with that person , everything about that person , it’s a corporate
story , how corporate sectors actually works , competitions in corporate fields
everything based on corporate field ,but whether that person is boy or girl ,
that you can got to know after reading my story . Hope you all enjoy it. My all
stories are different , so this time I thought to write a story on business and
corporate sector and competitions to prove yourself superior among all. It’s a
kind of challenging , when you are a woman as very few gonna help you , if you
always stick with your strict principle.
Hmmm, it’s an imaginary one.
First read then you can got to know!!!
11th
February 1989
A screaming sound and 2 doctors and 3 nurses
run to ward number -205 – a mental patient, only 33 years old– who were getting
treatment from last 1 year still no recovery or can say no change.
Who was that lady?
Why she is shouting?
What was her story?
Adam - a foreign Scottish writer even a mentalist too , who came India
for a unique story , which can help him to built his career in a new direction , he came India with high hope , he was sure
that here at least he’ll get a story which can touch everyone’s heart. He roam
here and there, visited different place he even didn’t left any hospital too as
he was searching a different story. He spend
his 1 year 6 moths time for 1 story which can make him satisfaction ,
finally when he thought about give up and left India suddenly his eyes fall on
a big xxxxyyyy mental hospital , he
thought it’s useless to try even his flight was next day morning 7 AM and it’s
already 4 o’clock evening. But his heart told him to try once more- he entered
into hospital, he even got permission too, but there he didn’t get anything , while
returning he saw a room closed from outside – ward number -205 – he tried to
see from window, who was there, he saw a woman writing something and she looked
normal, he confused – why? she was inside, one nurse told she is a dangerous
patient that’s why they can’t give him permission to meet with her. Adam, feel
like he got a new life for his story, he thought her life must be interesting.
He tried to convince all but when nobody allowed him and reject his appeal, he
thought it’s better to break the rule and meet with her illegally. Night 10 Pm
all door closed even lights shut up, Adam
entered into that room through a master key. He found that that lady was
busy in writing and her room lights are not off. When she saw him, she started
screaming and told
“I’ll kill you, let me go from here. I am ok! Please let me go, I need Nothing neither my property nor anyone. I just leave from here and I want my kid back. Please let me go”
“I’ll kill you, let me go from here. I am ok! Please let me go, I need Nothing neither my property nor anyone. I just leave from here and I want my kid back. Please let me go”
She sounds normal. Adam astonished, if
she is ok then then why she is in mental hospital, he told her “he can help her
if she will stop crying”.
In introduction he told his name is Shiva,
he is a new member in hospital, and he can help her if she will tell her story
and problems. He’ll complain before head of the department, after listing this
she told “all are Fraud, don’t say to anyone. No
one is with me. All are wearing the mask of human behind the face of wolf. She
is alive now due to her property and secretes codes, which she only knows.”
Adam felt happy inside as here he might
got a new mysterious story for which he was roaming here and there from last 1
and ½ year.
He told her to tell her story from
birth, as he also wanna know her life history then only he can help her to find
out the real culprit, he also wanna be a part of her life.
After a long time she smiled and hugged
him tightly and told after a long time in my life someone wanna listen my story
, someone wanna know about her as till now all came because of her property or
to get profit.
She started her story –
My name is Sephali , I was born in a small
town in Kolkata, I was belongs to a middle class family, not too high not too
low. Like all I also raised within a very pleasant environment , I touched peak
of success when I was in school , I was kind of all rounder , I was poor in
game but in rest I was quit smart. I was like an example before all at my time,
but may be time couldn’t see my smile. I was the topper till my 10th
my papa was my big supporter he wanted I should get high success so her spend
lots of money and send me private college for study , that was the number one
private college in my time . But like always I face lots of obstacles there,
there I learn how to face problems and how to handle it. I also misjudged,
misunderstood even there was also one time came when I was telling truth but in
the end I had to suffer. at first I had all friends but day by day when
competition level rise I lost my one friend still I have some , I passed then I
prepared for NASA and IIT but didn’t
get anything , my papa had high hope that one day I’ll get success , further I
failed and I failed just for few marks. Which hurt me badly, but this is the starting
period of painful life then I entered to engineering there I learn what
actually life is, which changed my life totally. For my all achievements, I
give a big thanks to my papa as he didn’t care anyone and tried his best to
give me best education. I am a girl, may be that was my biggest mistake, girl with high
hope or dream may be my biggest mistake, which was the starting point of real
painful life. How the time passed, I started to explore myself. many
dreams are there in my eyes but I didn’t have any supporter , who ever come to
help me either that person is fake or people take that person from me like my
god himself don’t want I should win or get success in my life . I tried many
times even criticized too , onetime came when I don’t have anyone , forget
about my near dear people nobody wants to see my success as they knew if I’ll get a single support
I can rise very high because what I was due to my father and his support
. That’s why nobody wants to help me even in single small things as no one
wanna see my success, not even close people too. I was purely alone , but whom
I can say , my papa also left his hope from me that one day I’ll make him feel
proud due to my serial failure , onetime also came I couldn’t sleep one night
for dream that one day my dreams will come true . I was just like crazy, of
course it’s the obvious situation as I secrifsed a lot for achieve my dream. I
tried a lot, I work hard even tried to modify myself for my future. Every time
I failed , instead of getting help I became target
before many , I didn’t get a single job as per my qualification
I don’t get job which can satisfy me . Sometimes I knowingly disqualify myself
and sometimes my luck left me alone. I know some decisions many hard to take
still I took only for my future , as I know I can’t fight with high profile people
better not to enter into their life as that was spoiling
my career and my dream or can say my life became like a challenging mode ,
I don’t have anything private . neither me nor my family issues, onetime also
came when my own family members fear to talk with me and identify them as my
family members as nobody wanna face problem for me, it doesn’t mean I did
anything wrong for that they feel shame but they fear as wherever I go my
problems attach with my life just like an important part and nobody wants to face
problem. even I didn’t do any mistake I face problem , even I tried to rise I
felt like some people knowingly pull my legs down and never let me rise further
, I had lots of dreams but not getting any support neither from family side nor
from government to start up my own business. My life was totally horrible,
even I never thought for a good life. I knew that I am the unluckiest one but didn’t know the level;
I may be in top level. Especially I unlucky for myself not for others,
I am very controversial person, if
someone say anything against me then he/she got lots of support. There was
a time when I felt like lost even I lost everyone, even everyone love me from
heart but don’t wanna express outside as they wanna get success. I want to give
up my life, but then I decide to change my god and my situation. I worked hard,
much hard then I got a job in a good company after a long time through one of
my friend who helped me a lot , who came in my life as an angel in this competitive
world where my own also left me alone and
refused me to help, I felt that now my life may be going to be ok! But that
was just starting point of my struggle. I may be a good employee but there also
I face lots of problems , people stole my work and blame me and spoiled my name
to down my image and position , as I worked good but still I was happy due to
my friend who was just like my two eyes and two hands .but one thing always astonished
me -what I
should do wherever I go my problems are running after me just like we both made
for each other. many nights I spend in crying but I was purely alone
no one was in my side except my friend, there was a time came when I decided to
give up my life even knew that’s not good even illegal still I chose that path
to get peace, while thinking about give up, I meet a mysterious man “Sohil Khanna”who changed my life, my
name too. He is now CEO of B&G Company. Till now what I told that just a
blink of my struggling life, my real life starts from him .
15th
October 1983
Like always I was busy to reach at my
office time, there was a client meeting I had to attend and another meeting
with our co-partnership company “SIBON
Co” where Sohil khanna was the
right hand of his boss, my boss told me that we have to get the contract from “SIBON Co” by hook or by crook, that’s
why he told me to impress Sohil Khanna
and got the contact with minimum price. I tried my best , I tried from social
media to impressed him as I knew if we make partnership with that company we
will be benefited finally successes in my goal ,of course he is a man not a
saint . I know for that first time I cheat someone, impress always doesn’t mean
physically impress as most of the time in IT company’s women are treated as showcase
but I was against that. I wanna do everything for my company but within my limit,
I never tried to cross my limit. But my friend was agaist it , he always warn
me not to do this as this may be risky , but I need promotion in my job and I wanna
do something in my life , that’s why I chose this way may be my path is wrong
but this is common in corporate sector , I was not doing anything wrong even
not sell me for profit , I just use my brain to get profit that’s it .I tried
to show fake love Sohil Khanna but
his arrogant behavior and rude wordings always change my mind , Inside I hate
him but it was quit a difficult task for me to be a double face, I had to show
my fake love for our profit. Onside I fear if my truth will revels before all then,
no doubt Sohil Khanna was handsome even smart even flirt kind of person too and
most important quality is he can attract anyone towards him through his
critical thinking. He was quit cleaver which actually attracts me, even I
always try to know successful working principles from him. Maybe we both cheat
each other at that time, but one time came I came to know he is starting to
love me when he proposed me before all in his b’day and gave me a ring for
future engagement. I was totally stuck
at that moment , I didn’t love him , I flirt for our profit but I didn’t know
my situation will be so worst . He may be a successful personality but I
couldn’t think he is fit with me. My mentality was totally different from him. My
boss became happy as he also wanted that, he wanted profit only but I was the victim
between love and profit. Whenever I tried to tell him truth a fear arise in my
heart what gonna be my future if I say no. He is very powerful and I am nothing
before him, if he’ll kill me then nobody also come to help me as I am ordinary
even having no sufficient money. Onside I don’t wanna love him another side I
didn’t have any other option even my friend also left me alone for this , as he
also loved me , I was in terrible state , what I gonna do. I also didn’t know why he choose me , many
beautiful girls were there who were much better than me , work even in beauty ,
one question always arise in my mind why he chose me – is he trying to take
revenge from me due to fake love or for what ? my mind was out of
order from the day when he proposed me , he meet me with his family but he
always told me to meet him with my family – at first I told him lie about my
family as I didn’t love him so why should I tell him truth. Finally one day I
decided to tell him that whatever I told that was lie even my love –I wanna
tell him but suddenly that day due to a car accident he was hospitalized and he
need A+ blood, I was the only person who gave him nearly 2 bottle blood, I did
it for humanity or love I also didn’t know but can’t see him in pain. his
family members quit impress as I saved his life, I felt like now my marriage
with that arrogant Sohil Khanna is
100% sure, he also got to know that whatever I told about my family all were
lie still he wanna marry as he knew I was doing drama in first but he didn’t
know I never loved him neither in past not now due to his arrogant behavior. I
tried a lot but always failed. But after
marriage I decided to give up my job as I wanna be loyal and concentrate on my
family and dream . I always have a dream to start my own company, own business,
that’s why after my marriage I started focus on my ideas for my own business.
Finally I succeed B&G company is the real fruit of my hard work ,
after finishing my whole complete project with model I showed my husband “Sohil Khanna” he quit impress on my
idea and decided to lunch on my b’day , I was happy as after a long time my
dream is going to true. Just two day before my b’day I got a phone call and a
lady requested me to come to xxxxyyy hospital as she need my help , I didn’t
know who is she but as a humanity I reached there , I saw a pregnant lady laid
on a bed may be she is going to deliver her child , she told me this child is Sohil Khanna’s baby if she will die
then take care of that baby , her words astonished me , for a few second I
couldn’t understand what to say , felt like my whole body paralyzed , then I
called Sohil Khanna and told him to
come hospital but b4 he reached that women already died after giving birth a
baby boy , but Sohil Khanna confess
that he had relationship with that lady even he loved her a lot but unfortunately
couldn’t marry due to some internal reason. He didn’t tell me anything clearly
even I was not in mood to ask him anything. As per her request I came home with
her baby, I told Sohil Khanna not to
celebrate my b’day, as I was already lost. I didn’t celebrate my b’day for the
first time in my life, I tried to overcome from pain but couldn’t where as my husband
already lunched our new company but didn’t inform me about it .after 7 days of
lunching of B&G company I got to know about it, it hurt me badly as I
worked hard even whole idea even model was mine but he didn’t inform me during lunch.
I hide my pain , but whom I say and what , it took a long time to overcome ,
slowly slowly I tried to concentrate on my second project which I wanna do by
own , he might be my husband but we are like 2 separate human where I don’t
know him and he don’t know me. That’s why my diary became my best friend, in
past I was alone and now too. No change, yes! Only one change that’s my life
style. I was trying to go back to cooperate sector again after 1 year of our marriage
life , even this time as per the agreement I was getting 15% interest from B&G
company profit which was stuffiest for my new project start up but still not enough,
as I wanna start up my social work too along with that. I had numerous projects
which always roaming in my head, I always looking for an opportunity. in my
company – “josh” was a honest and hard working new fresher who always wish to
explore himself , I always search a person who’ll help me as my husband not
going to help me in this small projects specially socialwrok kind of works , he
helped me a lot but one day he found dead in mysterious way. He had no enemies
even no girl friend issues too , he wants to rise in his life like I had dream
when I joined in a company , I helped him as I knew the meaning of dream . Police
doubt on me as he was helping me in my project, I also felt like lost as I lost
my right hand. His death quit break me inside still I was suborn to complete my
project. But before that my prime duty was to get the murderer , no doubt
police said this is suicide case but I knew that , that’s a murder case as he
was very strong and why he’ll do suicide everything was fine in his life, there
must be any reason to do suicide and I couldn’t find anything. I felt like
something is going very wrong, which I didn’t know. After that , Police also
close that case even I also become busy in my small project on student , I had
2 small projects , one is student project which I wanna make big another my
orphan where I kept those kids who have no one , as I knew how it feel when
everyone left you alone. I always try to give these kids a homely environment ,
for this I spend my all profit money from my company , I didn’t have any bank
balance neither for myself nor for my family. My husband was sufficient for our
family , I was investing money in my dream work , I always pray one thing
before my lord that before my actual death I wish to make some of my dreams
true , within those most important was giving home to homeless kids or old
parents. Time passed , 2 years passed of our marriage but I couldn’t understand
why I married , sometimes I even doubt that why sohil Khanna married me , I was alone in my past life even now too
. Yes! One thing changed that previously I always dream but now I can implement
it, which is my greatest achievement otherwise I felt like I was born lonely,
no one was before even now too. I always try to busy myself within my work so
that I can avoid my pain , but one day I got to know that my husband has
relationship with his Personal assistance , which hurt me and this time I asked
him directly , he told me “this is corporate
sector , even you also experienced this . How you cheat me before to get profit
for your company, she is also doing same for her profit. This is the profit
having brain, money with beauty. Don’t correlate office work with personal, I
never interfere your life so better you should not too. I am happy for your
success so you should too. I want to see my company in top level and she is
helping me but that’s not easy if you will take all issues by heart.” Then
I became silent and promised to myself in future I’ll never interfere In his
any issues .one day his Personal assistance found dead and police suspect my
husband even I too but that case also closed as suicide case. Another side my
project work was going to publish in international market, I couldn’t forget March -5-1887 because that day my
project was accepted by some foreign investors and I was happy that very soon I
gonna work on that and how much profit I’ll get that much big my orphan will be
another reason which add value in my life that’s I was pregnant , which gave me hope to live and smile . Just
few days after of my new project work start , I faced an accident but I was
safe even my baby too, after coming from hospital I felt some kind of abnormalities
in my head , that affected on my work too , I felt like I may be suffer from
any big disease but no doctor can detect anything . day by day my behavior quit
change which affect my business even family life also , one day also came in my
life I lose my everything due to loss of my business , I behave much abnormal
way no one can understand my state of mind , everyone thought maybe I became
mad due to high loss , from that day I am in this mental hospital , doctors
took my baby from me , I couldn’t spend even one day with my baby , even I also
don’t know what’s wrong with me , I am not mad even not mentally unstable , I still
remember everything , but don’t know who is doing this , who will get befitted
from this ? After coming here nobody
came here to see me and show my baby. I wanna escape from here. Can you please
help me? I need your help.
After listening this Adam decided to help her first, which
was his duty but he was a foreigner, how could he help her, who gonna believe him.
There may be a chance he may face problem for her, still he decided to help
her. He knowingly meets with the head of the hospital but nobody wants to talk
about her, finally he decided to meet Sohil
Khanna, sephli’s husband. But he couldn’t meet him as he was always busy in
his work, his company was too big. He planned how to get to know the entire
truth. Finally one day he got to chance to meet Sohil Khanna, he told him he is a writer , he is trying to write
the success stories so if he can give him some time then he’ll be very happy . He’ll
publish his story, finally Sohil Khanna
told him to meet in his home on Sunday morning. Adam reached in time, Sohil Khanna
was also perfect in his time, he started his story how he raised in his life,
he was from a simple family and how a lady sephali changed his life, and then Sohil Khanna described his family life
with Sephali. He always love her too much but never show before her but he didn’t
know one day will come he had to left her alone in mental hospital. From Sohil Khanna’s story, Adam got to know
that may be any third person in their life who can’t see their success, but who?
Another side sephali always blamed Sohil Khanna for her this kind of life.
After lots of research he got to know that, this is very complicated. So he
took the help of a famous advocate through one of his Indian friend, they both
start their work. …………………………………………………………
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In the end they both conclude that one of the friend of sephali ,
she is a lady, who couldn’t see her success. but what was her relation with sephali , what she
wanna ruin her life. is she loved Sohil Khanna ……………………………………………..
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In the end Adam killed but his work
published and he got many prices for his writing. He contribute his life for cephalic
and Soil Hanna……………………
Story
is not end here, wait for complete story!!!
What
happened next is more mysterious than your thought, as it’s all about corporate
life where success matters most than any relation…………………
PART ONE FEW – next I gonna complete after 24th … wait
till that day ,
Now you all can get my story in series format in my blog , this is
not copy paste , my real work but now I don’t have capability to write and
publish my own book , so I wanna explore my ideas through my blog .
Thanks for read !!!
PS - SORRY FOR MY SILLY MISTAKES , PLEASE IGNORE IF THERE IS ANY.
PS - SORRY FOR MY SILLY MISTAKES , PLEASE IGNORE IF THERE IS ANY.